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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

Finally, his father turned around. He bent down so that their eyes met. ‘I’ll say it more clearly this time, shall I?’ he asked. His mouth did something that might have been a smile if it weren’t for the coldness in his eyes.

Max swallowed and nodded.

‘Hermann, please,’ his mother said weakly.

Her husband ignored her. ‘You won’t see Elsa again, and you won’t see Leo again,’ he said to Max. ‘I forbid it. Is that clear?’

Max nodded even harder. ‘Yes, Father,’ he said.

Max’s mother was standing in front of his father now, reaching out to him. ‘Hermann, stop,’ she begged.

He shook her off. ‘No. I’ve had enough. He needs to get this into his head, even if I have to spell it out to him.’

‘He’s just a boy,’ she pleaded.

‘Well, it’s time he learned to be a man!’ his father barked. Then he turned back to Max. ‘Your friendship with people like them is over. You hear me?’

Max stared at his father in horror. He didn’t want to ask the question. He didn’t want to hear the answer. He’d been running away from it all day, maybe for weeks, months – but it was there and it was coming towards him.

Before he could stop himself, his mouth was forming the words. ‘People like who?’

His father spoke the word as if it were dirt in his mouth.

‘Jews.’

And with that, he turned away from his wife and son and walked to the table. Pulling out his chair, he unrolled a serviette and sat down for dinner, as though nothing had happened.

Max followed him without uttering another word.

He couldn’t eat his dinner, though. Every time he tried to swallow, he felt he might be sick.

LEO

I sat at the kitchen table, trying to do my homework while Mama made challah – the bread we had every Friday night – but I couldn’t concentrate. Elsa’s words played over and over in my head, round and round and round like a record on Papa’s gramophone.

Because we’re Jewish.

Because we’re Jewish.

Because we’re Jewish.

In the park, I’d said that my parents hadn’t told me it was dangerous – and it was true, they hadn’t. Not in so many words. But still, something had held me back from laughing like Max had done. Something had stopped me from insisting it wasn’t dangerous to be Jewish. Something to do with the tiny moments at home that I’d told myself I was imagining. Looks between my parents I’d pretended not to see. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but if I thought about it I knew that things had felt different recently.

Which was why I mostly didn’t focus on it. Because if I did, my gut would tell me that perhaps Elsa was right.