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Chapters (79)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. A NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. CONTENT WARNING
  5. 1936
  6. LEO
  7. ELSA
  8. MAX
  9. LEO
  10. ELSA
  11. MAX
  12. 1937
  13. ELSA
  14. MAX
  15. LEO
  16. EARLY 1938
  17. ELSA
  18. MAX
  19. LEO
  20. MAX
  21. LEO
  22. MAX
  23. LATE 1938
  24. ELSA
  25. MAX
  26. LEO
  27. ELSA
  28. MAX
  29. LEO
  30. 1939
  31. ELSA
  32. LEO
  33. MAX
  34. LEO
  35. ELSA
  36. LEO
  37. ELSA
  38. LEO
  39. ELSA
  40. LEO
  41. 1940
  42. MAX
  43. ELSA
  44. LEO
  45. 1941
  46. ELSA
  47. LEO
  48. ELSA
  49. MAX
  50. ELSA
  51. 1942
  52. MAX
  53. LEO
  54. ELSA
  55. 1943
  56. LEO
  57. MAX
  58. ELSA
  59. MAX
  60. ELSA
  61. 1944
  62. LEO
  63. ELSA
  64. MAX
  65. ELSA
  66. MAX
  67. ELSA
  68. MAX
  69. ELSA
  70. MAX
  71. LEO
  72. PAPA
  73. 1945
  74. LEO
  75. 2021
  76. LEO
  77. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
  78. A list of resources and further reading
  79. About the Author

Max mimed putting a steel helmet on his head. As he did so, he could almost feel himself becoming a real soldier. He filled his lungs with air, puffed out his chest and stuck out his jaw.

Then he pointed at Erich, still sitting on the ground. ‘Sieg Heil!’ he shouted. ‘Get up! Lazy Jew!’

Erich held his hands up in front of him and laughed. ‘Hey, all right, all right. I’m getting up,’ he said. ‘I didn’t realize we’d started playing.’

Max was firmly in role before Erich had even stopped laughing. He shouted even louder this time. ‘Get up! NOW!’ He felt the soldier inside him fizzing through his veins. Max tried to remind himself it was a game. But to him it was so much more. It was training. It was preparation. It was enacting the words that he said out loud in front of the mirror each morning. The speech that every member of the Hitler Youth knew by heart.

The German boy of the future must be slender and supple, swift as a greyhound, tough as leather and hard as Krupp steel.

Those words guided his actions and defined his ambitions. Next year, he and Erich would join the senior ranks of the Hitler Youth and Max could hardly wait to take everything he had learned to the next level. Games like this were his chance to hone his skills to the finest point possible, prove himself to his father – and to Hitler.

Erich dragged himself off the ground. ‘Sorry, sir,’ he said, standing up and straightening his jacket.

‘March!’ Max barked at his friend, almost spitting the words out. ‘Now!’

Erich sloped across the field. As he walked, he bent a finger in front of his face in the shape of a massive hooked nose, just like the Jewish caricatures on the Nazi posters that lined every wall of their city. Every now and then, he stopped to hold his arms out in a wide, exaggerated shrug. ‘Oh, poor me. I’m a dirty Jew,’ he’d say. ‘I am a despicable human being. I am worse than a human being. I am a dog, a rat. I am a stain on society.’

The way he did it was so over the top Max couldn’t help laughing. Then he shook himself and got back into role. ‘Come on,’ he said, giving Erich a prod. ‘Keep marching.’

Max taunted and shouted and called his friend names all the way across the field. And with every step and with each insult he hurled, he felt waves of relief flood over him that he had won the race.

Erich looked so dejected by the time they reached the other side, Max wasn’t sure if his friend was playing his own part well or if Max had made such a good job of playing soldier that Erich was genuinely fed up.