true harmony

—see you then

and so

at times i hide myself

until i’m forced to release

old versions grow old,

no good—too soon

sooner than

i prepare to leave.

be patient with your journey.

tears will come, let them.

friends will go, let them.

love will bloom..

or fade, let it.

the more you clean house

the more you open space

for new life and new blessings

to settle in.

take each day—one by one.

antibodies

this is an interlude

this is progression

this is where the

rapture meets us

unpretty, iffy, empty,

as honest as can be

fear lives down the

street from you and me

in the home with the

most traction. see the

action lives for free.

right there at the

corner where deception

smiles back. the joint

where dark clouds

recruit. and the breeze—

oh the breeze says hello.

has a spell brewing

asks all the right

things to seem a way.

i avoid these places.

the faces wear scary

eyes. don’t greet

sound people with

love and life.

judas stays dressed

up in his finest.

speaks the same

language, but

don’t take pride

in it. must not

hear it the same.

words flowing tho

jive sings in tunes

dreadful rendezvous.

the ones who attach

themselves to the

memory of discomfort

cripple themselves.

if the end is near

they won’t make

it there. and damn

right you will

cross paths as

you wait in line

for your turn. they

will distract you

right where you are,

they will promise you

things you cannot

resist, they will give

you an illusion

in return for your

spirit. your sweet

sweet spirit. your

innocent self. they

will trap you

in the moment.

May 27th 2020

today feels heavy as fuck!

you ever seen a nigga get kilt?

you ever been the killer?

you ever point fingers

instead of surrender?

you ever resist?

you know what resisting feels like for us?

giving up.

you know what giving up feels like for us?

murder.

feels like—it’s been forever since

we let too much slide.

been ill-fated ever since.

been on the wrong side of luck,

on the wrong side of saved.

guess we should’ve prayed more

guess we should pay our dues more

shoulda gave thanks more

should’ve said a word—

you ever seen a nigga shout?

seen a nigga get dealt the cards

he was given?

still walk around—

mind on earth

body in prison.

[here i’m inserting the filtered version]

don’t wanna scare the folk

who pretend to love me.

[here i’m inserting the truth.]

i’m elevating my grandfather right now.

lighting a candle for 9 days straight.

he served in the US MILITARY

for 9 whole years

i can’t even find him on google.

i’m tired of watching my own

fade away. we are disposable to them.

they don’t care about our bodies

once our magic is forgotten.

today feels heavy as fuck.

today feels like i been here before.

today feels like routine.

today feels like death.