Back The Wilderwomen
Chapters (37)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. Dedication
  3. BEFORE
  4. AFTER
  5. ONE THOUGHTS ON SUN HATS
  6. TWO TIME FOR CAKE
  7. THREE TWELVE MONTHS
  8. FOUR PSYCHIC KARAOKE
  9. FIVE A SECOND SLEEPING BAG
  10. SIX SIX MONTHS
  11. SEVEN THE EARLY BIRD GETS THE PANCAKE
  12. EIGHT SIX MONTHS
  13. NINE FOLLOW THE MUSIC
  14. TEN THE STARS ARE BRIGHTER IN THE DESERT
  15. ELEVEN SIX MONTHS
  16. TWELVE EVERY STAR HAS A SONG
  17. THIRTEEN PSYCHIC KARAOKE
  18. FOURTEEN ONE MONTH
  19. FIFTEEN A WELL-TRAVELED HAT
  20. SIXTEEN JOEL VS. THE VOLCANO
  21. SEVENTEEN TWO WEEKS
  22. EIGHTEEN HOUSE OF MEMORIES
  23. NINETEEN IF TREES COULD TALK
  24. TWENTY THREE DAYS
  25. TWENTY-ONE SEARCH PARTY
  26. TWENTY-TWO NOT THE SAME ZADIE
  27. TWENTY-THREE WAVES OF SMOKE
  28. TWENTY-FOUR THE DAY OF
  29. TWENTY-FIVE THE SKY IS FULL OF BIRDS
  30. TWENTY-SIX NEST
  31. TWENTY-SEVEN
  32. EPILOGUE
  33. TWENTY-EIGHT A SONG ABOUT A BIRD
  34. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  35. Also by Ruth Emmie Lang
  36. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  37. Newsletter Sign-up

While Ursula was setting up her keyboard on its stand, Finn tilted her head back to observe the stars glistening through the glass panes. Then all at once they blinked out of existence.

When the stars reappeared, they were different somehow.

She saw Orion, the hunter. Canis Major. In fact, she could name all the constellations in the sky that night.

Ursula could. This was her memory, not Finn’s.

Then. A note.

The only word she could think of to describe it was shimmering.

It sounded like a sequined dress looks under stage lights; a tincture made of starlight dropped straight into the soft shells of her ears.

Another note joined the first, followed by another, then another.

Soon the whole sky was shimmering.

Then her eyes adjusted from the infinite blackness of space to the lamplight of Ursula’s observatory. Neither Ursula nor Zadie were there.

I must still be in the echo, Finn/Ursula thought.

Ursula’s memory wrestled a pencil into her hand. She began furiously scratching out notes on a piece of sheet music.

The door to the observatory opened.

Nic. Her wife’s mouth was moving, but all she heard was a loud ringing sound.

A flash of recognition on Nic’s face. She switched to sign language.

Finn/Ursula found herself signing back: I’LL BE DONE SOON. I JUST HAVE TO FINISH UP THIS PIECE.

OKAY. I LOVE YOU, Nic answered, then closed the door.

As the lock clicked shut, Finn was jolted back to the present. Both Ursula and Zadie were staring at her. “What did you see?” Zadie asked.

The ringing in her ears was gone, but it still took Finn a few seconds to find her voice. When she did, it was unsteady. Her eyes, she realized, were wet. “The stars. I heard their music. It was … I’ve never heard anything that beautiful.”

Ursula studied her for a moment. “You saw something else, didn’t you?”

Finn nodded solemnly.

“What is it?” Zadie asked.

Finn cast her eyes on the ground. It was not her story to tell.

“I’m going deaf,” Ursula said bluntly, then looked up at the stars as if they gave her the courage to continue. “I found out six months ago. Turns out, even my headphones aren’t strong enough to block the damage the sun is doing to my ears. I can hear okay most of the time, but there are moments when everything just goes silent. That’s why I’m rushing to get all this music written down, because soon I won’t be able to hear it anymore.”

Finn finally raised her eyes to Ursula. “I’m sorry.” She was both sorry that Ursula was losing her hearing and sorry that she had found out the way she did.