Chapters (60)
- Cover
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- Dedication
- KARLA
- One
- Two
- Three
- Four
- Five
- Six
- Seven
- Eight
- Nine
- Ten
- Eleven
- Twelve
- Thirteen
- Fourteen
- Fifteen
- Sixteen
- Seventeen
- Eighteen
- Nineteen
- Twenty
- Twenty-One
- Twenty-Two
- Twenty-Three
- Twenty-Four
- Twenty-Five
- Twenty-Six
- Twenty-Seven
- Twenty-Eight
- Twenty-Nine
- Thirty
- Thirty-One
- Thirty-Two
- Thirty-Three
- Thirty-Four
- Thirty-Five
- Thirty-Six
- Thirty-Seven
- Thirty-Eight
- Thirty-Nine
- Forty
- Forty-One
- Forty-Two
- Forty-Three
- Forty-Four
- Forty-Five
- Forty-Six
- Forty-Seven
- Forty-Eight
- Epilogue
- The Affair
- Hear more from Sheryl
- Books by Sheryl Browne
- A Letter from Sheryl
- The Babysitter
- The Second Wife
- Acknowledgements
‘I imagine this will add fuel to the press pyre,’ Diana replied calmly. ‘I haven’t informed Karla yet. Naturally, I want to do that sensitively. Goodbye, Robert.’
Cold foreboding clutching his stomach, Robert stared at her. Then, as the implication of what she was saying began to sink in, he felt something snap dangerously inside him. The rage that consumed him was so blinding, so all-encompassing, he had no awareness of crossing the room. He was appalled when he realised what he’d done. He hadn’t meant to. He’d never laid a hand on her before. He didn’t realise he had, until he saw the terror in her eyes.
‘Oh, God, Diana… I’m sorry. I didn’t…’ he stuttered, reaching for her – but Diana recoiled in an instant, that same shocked look on her face he’d seen on Sarah’s.
Robert watched hopelessly, powerless to stop her, as Diana grabbed up her things and fled. He’d only ever cried twice before in his adult life. Once at the funeral. Once afterwards, when he’d realised his wife would never again look at him with affection. By then, he’d accepted that things had fizzled out sexually between them – he’d had no choice – but he’d still needed her affection. He’d sought an outlet for his needs, of course he had, but he’d loved her still, in his own way. She must have known he did. Must have known that, as intolerable as things had sometimes seemed, he’d never envisaged a life without her. Why else would he have bothered working day after day, working himself into an early grave?
How could she do this to him? Feeling a tear spill from his chin as he stood amongst the ruins of his life, he reached to wipe it away. Attempting to compose himself after a while, he walked to the bathroom, where he extracted a bandage from the medicine cabinet and wrapped it round the hand he’d cut while retrieving large slivers of glass from the carpet. Going back to the bedroom, he paused, surveying himself in the shattered mirror. He didn’t recognise the broken person looking back: a worry-worn, defeated man with tell-tale ruddy cheeks and sagging jowls. A much older man than he perceived himself to be. That wasn’t him. Pulling himself taller, Robert squared his shoulders and braced himself to face those who would see him fall.