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Chapters (63)
  1. THE AMERICANA PLAYBOOK
  2. Dear Reader
  3. The Troubled Teen Industry
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. New England Rebels
  7. Day 44
  8. Chapter 1
  9. Chapter 2
  10. Chapter 3
  11. Chapter 4
  12. Day 55
  13. Chapter 5
  14. TWO MONTHS LATER
  15. Chapter 6
  16. Chapter 7
  17. Chapter 8
  18. Day 68
  19. Chapter 9
  20. Chapter 10
  21. Chapter 11
  22. Chapter 12
  23. Day 78
  24. Chapter 13
  25. Chapter 14
  26. Chapter 15
  27. Chapter 16
  28. Chapter 17
  29. Day 84
  30. Chapter 18
  31. Chapter 19
  32. Chapter 20
  33. Day 91
  34. Chapter 21
  35. Chapter 22
  36. Day 100
  37. Chapter 23
  38. Chapter 24
  39. Chapter 25
  40. Chapter 26
  41. Day 113
  42. Chapter 27
  43. Chapter 28
  44. Chapter 29
  45. Chapter 30
  46. Day 128
  47. Chapter 31
  48. Chapter 32
  49. Chapter 33
  50. Day 147
  51. Chapter 34
  52. Chapter 35
  53. Chapter 36
  54. Chapter 37
  55. Chapter 38
  56. Chapter 39
  57. Chapter 40
  58. Epilogue
  59. ONE MONTH LATER
  60. FIVE YEARS LATER
  61. Acknowledgments
  62. Also by Cathryn Carter
  63. About the Author

Parker presses her lips together. “Your future?” she asks. “Or his?”

Her question suddenly makes me realize the answer. “He piggy-backed off of me to climb up the ladder.” I swallow painfully. “He trained me like a damn workhorse and so I’d carry him up.”

“You would know better than me,” she says softly. “Football is your world, not mine.”

Maybe I know football. But Parker knows abuse. And I’m not sure I can say with certainty I’ve experienced it. I just have a feeling if I haven’t, I’ve come pretty damn close.

I let go of her hand to cup her face. “I’m so sorry,” I whisper. “I never should’ve listened to him. I let himself believe he had my best interests at heart and… I don’t know that he ever really did. You’ll never know how hard I wish I could go back and do the right thing.”

Parker takes a deep breath, and I taste the forgiveness that floats on the exhale, I feel it in the way she reaches up and holds onto my wrist. “It’s heartbreaking to realize someone you love isn’t even someone you know.”

It is. But as I tug Parker down and nestle her against me, I realize the opposite is true too. It’s so comforting to realize the person you love has been the same all along.

I run my hands through the soft strands of her hair. “What about Cam?”

Parker sighs. “I need to know what it will take for him to move that bill back into committee. If me testifying or giving a statement is enough.”

My mouth twists. “And you’re okay doing that?”

The lawsuit is one thing. But testifying in front of Congress? With her father as the sitting president? That’s something else.

“What about the convention and your parents? Will you still go through with that?”

“As of now, that’s what they think.” Parker lets out a heavy exhale. “Using the truth to do something is more important than just putting it out there and walking away. It will be hard, but I’m going to be okay. Maybe not right away, but one day, I will.”

Chapter 39

I know you won’t see this until after the game, I just wanted to tell you how handsome you look in your uniform.

I can’t wait to be there to cheer you on.

jersey, jacket, your number on my face, I’ll pull out all the stops.

Fitzy

Good. There shouldn’t be any doubt about who you belong to.

winking face with tongue

I roll my eyes and look at the TV, which has gone to a commercial instead of live coverage of the stadium in Tampa.

Shouldn’t you be warming up or something?

Fitzy

That’s done. Just wanted to check and see if you needed me.

Abby is on her way. We will be okay.

Fitzy

Yes. You will.