Chapters (61)
- Cover
- About the Author
- PENGUIN BOOKS
- Dedication
- Epigraph
- The Shipwreck, 1987
- Heaven, Really
- Flying to Tower Hamlets
- The Coroner’s Office
- The Burial Ground
- Single at Mingles, 1988
- Café Italia, Soho
- Broadstairs-sur-la-Mer
- Clerken-well
- Fifty-one Days in Blackheath
- London Au Revoir
- La France
- The Freeway
- Hall of Mirrors, Versailles
- The Queen of France’s Boudoir
- A Caravan in a Country Lane
- The Convent
- Café des Fantômes, Paris
- The Camargue
- Morning in a French Lay-by
- A Thousand Miles from Home
- The Campsite
- Summer on the Coast
- The Crying Mountain
- Seeing Red in Orange Square, Marbella
- Rock of Jabal al-Tariq
- The Room in Jessie’s Head
- Mama Hortense’s Singing Kitchen
- Closing Time at Mama’s
- The Alps
- The Fêted House of Medici, Florence
- Continental Shift, Turkey
- The Silken Road
- Letter from the Court of Jessie at Ölüdeniz
- Summer of 1989: Court Budget
- Dreams of a Faraway Place
- A Trip Down Memory Lane
- Old Istanbul
- Eighteenth-century Slave Market
- In the Sultan’s Seraglio
- Life after the Camp Deserter
- The Front Line
- Güle, Güle, Ölüdeniz
- The Ocean Floor
- Eastern Anatolia
- Slipping into the Middle East
- The Supreme Court of ‘Justice’
- Antipodean Dreamtime
- The Glorious Gulf
- Epilogue: Under the Carpet at Windsor
- Acknowledgements
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- THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
| S | J |
| old town, narrow streets | |
| boutiques, Arab wall | |
| how I long to be a tourist | |
| my little caravan | |
| now it’s gone, my | |
| summer second to none | |
| Rain | |
| missionary of the skies | |
| cleansed | |
| trauma’s supposed to bond | |
| like cement, not sink | |
| like subsidence | |
| flood – emissary of doom | |
| aftermath, we face | |
| off | |
| Villa Express Letting Agency | |
| ‘A lovely flat | |
| overlooking harbour’ | |
| I can see clearly | |
| rpt, rpt, rpt | |
| now the rain has … | |
| only £60 a week | |
| he can afford it | |
| (bank statements) | |
| my nest egg | |
| will not be siphoned off | |
| by my credit card | |
| Mr Sugar Daddy | |
| becomes Mr Skin Flint | |
| (you never know people) | |
| and another thing – | |
| when will I see the colour | |
| of your silver? | |
| was always my intention | |
| to supplement | |
| my savings = safety net | |
| 400 fucking squid | |
| you’re taking the mickey | |
| Jessie | |
| so let’s get enterprising | |
| make money, move | |
| easterly | |
| oh, sure | |
| summer = bumming | |
| winter = freeloading | |
| who, just who | |
| plucked you | |
| from your sodding hellhole? | |
| manna offered | |
| manacles clamped | |
| manumission sought | |
| I give 100% | |
| nowt to be ashamed | |
| blameless | |
| two interlocking circles = | |
| ideal = 50% = | |
| more than enough | |
| sleep in Matilda | |
| until we get sorted | |
| tired, Stanley, so tired | |
| Viciousness | |
| never knew existed | |
| it’s … exhilarating | |
| Hearts | |
| already got shards | |
| sticking out | |
| face screwed up | |
| like she’s mental | |
| God, I’m evil | |
| where’s my | |
| sweet Stanley | |
| gone? | |
| c’mon, retaliate | |
| usual Amazonian spirit | |
| spear in one hand, tit in other | |
| Scooping | |
| my eyeballs out | |
| but he’s gone so cold | |
| old Governor’s House | |
| arched balconies, shields | |
| everyone’s staring | |
| he’s wearing jeans | |
| not trackies | |
| traitor | |
| two choices – | |
| cuddle in arms? | |
| follow yellow brick road? | |
| he’s striding off | |
| come back, Stanley | |
| come back! | |
| she’s shouting | |
| but my legs | |
| just-keep-on-moving |
Rock of Jabal al-Tariq
Sunset had transformed the Strait of Gibraltar into streaks of flowing magenta and fuchsia scarves.
Feeling the last rays of sun penetrate his cream woollen pullover, Stanley peered through a telescope at Morocco’s Atlas Mountains, which lay as misty peaks within his imaginary grasp some ten miles away.
He had arrived in Gibraltar a day earlier, fascinated by the novelty of this limestone rock that adjoined Spain but that was one of Britain’s last remaining colonies. He soon discovered that aside from the sight of red double-decker buses and red phone boxes transplanted on to a distinctly Spanish-looking town, there was little else to interest him.