Back Soul Tourists
Chapters (61)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. PENGUIN BOOKS
  4. Dedication
  5. Epigraph
  6. The Shipwreck, 1987
  7. Heaven, Really
  8. Flying to Tower Hamlets
  9. The Coroner’s Office
  10. The Burial Ground
  11. Single at Mingles, 1988
  12. Café Italia, Soho
  13. Broadstairs-sur-la-Mer
  14. Clerken-well
  15. Fifty-one Days in Blackheath
  16. London Au Revoir
  17. La France
  18. The Freeway
  19. Hall of Mirrors, Versailles
  20. The Queen of France’s Boudoir
  21. A Caravan in a Country Lane
  22. The Convent
  23. Café des Fantômes, Paris
  24. The Camargue
  25. Morning in a French Lay-by
  26. A Thousand Miles from Home
  27. The Campsite
  28. Summer on the Coast
  29. The Crying Mountain
  30. Seeing Red in Orange Square, Marbella
  31. Rock of Jabal al-Tariq
  32. The Room in Jessie’s Head
  33. Mama Hortense’s Singing Kitchen
  34. Closing Time at Mama’s
  35. The Alps
  36. The Fêted House of Medici, Florence
  37. Continental Shift, Turkey
  38. The Silken Road
  39. Letter from the Court of Jessie at Ölüdeniz
  40. Summer of 1989: Court Budget
  41. Dreams of a Faraway Place
  42. A Trip Down Memory Lane
  43. Old Istanbul
  44. Eighteenth-century Slave Market
  45. In the Sultan’s Seraglio
  46. Life after the Camp Deserter
  47. The Front Line
  48. Güle, Güle, Ölüdeniz
  49. The Ocean Floor
  50. Eastern Anatolia
  51. Slipping into the Middle East
  52. The Supreme Court of ‘Justice’
  53. Antipodean Dreamtime
  54. The Glorious Gulf
  55. Epilogue: Under the Carpet at Windsor
  56. Acknowledgements
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  61. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘When my mother died in 1683, I cried without tears. There was no longer any hope. Her heart was encased in a silver box in the chapel at Val de Grâce, her coffin laid out in state. The Court went into official mourning. When my time came, I was buried in a simple plot behind the convent chapel.

‘If only they had killed me at birth, because when I ascended the skies, there really was no St Peter waiting at the pearly gates, no everlasting happiness in paradise, as pure and virtuous as I had always been. Just this.’

Stanley’s instinct was to pull this woman through the mirror, into the twentieth century. To dress her in slacks and a modest blouse, to initiate her into a world where she would have choices.

‘Yes, just this,’ he echoed, raising his arms as if to reach out. ‘A half-life, neither here nor there –’

‘What the flaming heck are you doing talking to yourself, Stanley Whateveritis Williams? Leave you alone for a few minutes and you’ve gone off your trolley.’

Jessie had replaced Louise-Marie in the mirror.

‘I was talking to … the Black Nun of Moret …’ Stanley trailed off, disappointed. He had wanted to empathize with the odd little creature. To say she made him realize how grateful he was to have had parents who made sure he was given opportunities that their own immigrant selves were not. How it was only when his father was old and weak that he began to feel compassion, albeit one drenched in resentment. She had prompted the question he now thought to ask Jessie: What was it like to grow up without parental love?

‘You do have a sense of humour after all. Sorry for earlier, I’m an erratic bitch. Never said I was easy. Never said I was boring neither. Give us a hug, then.’

Jessie’s cheek rested against his back.

‘You’re real, flesh and blood,’ he said, as if he expected her to pass through him and end up hugging herself.

‘No, sawdust and plastic. Are you done now? I’ve had enough of this poncey place. Thank God for the French Revolution. Let’s drive to Paris tomorrow. I want to be among the living.’

No, he wasn’t going mad, he reassured himself. A black nun. If he didn’t tell Jessie now, it would be harder later. He began, tentatively, ‘I was talking to someone. You won’t believe this, but she’s called Louise-Marie, an adult but built like a twelve-year-old … She’s been wandering in this palace for over two hundred years, daughter of –’

Jessie flapped her arms. ‘Was she wearing a white sheet and going “Oooooh!”?’

It really did sound ridiculous, but he persisted. ‘She made me think of you. Raised in a convent without parents. What was it like, Jessie? Tell me?’