January 13th, 2017

Dear Mark,

I’m out and I’m …

This isn’t what I wanted. None of this is what I wanted. And I always get what I want. That’s the bargain that was made with me and the universe—I get everything, get to do anything I want, and in return, I don’t get to keep anyone, don’t get to belong. And now I have none of it.

Whatever that Caleb kid did to me wrecked something permanently. Maybe permanently. Probably.

I can’t do it anymore. The thing that has made me me, has given me my life, and taken everything from me is gone.

Looks like everyone else finally got what they wanted for once. I’m powerless.

community/TheUnusuals post by n/thatsahumanperson

A bit of a lighter question for folks today—do you have a lot of friends who are Unusual?

Me … not so much. There’s my family, of course—growing up with Unusual parents was its own unique thing and, I guess, maybe why I haven’t sought out more people like me? Other than on here, of course. It’s been a comfort to get to come here, to talk about my ability with people who are going through the same thing, like an extension of all the group therapy and programs I’ve done. But I’ve never brought that feeling, that sense of community, into my real life.

I totally could have. Anyone who’s done a program at That Place (regardless of what division you’re at) has probably met other people their age who are Unusual. After all, most of us get our abilities in our teens, and that’s when most of us go through all the “you’ve got a superpower” starter kit stuff, usually with other people who are in the same boat. Have any of you taken those relationships—people you meet in group, that you do exercises with, whatever—and brought them into the real world?

I’m asking now because it never really occurred to me as a possibility when I was there. But my sister just came back from her second visit (thanks to all y’all who have been checking in—she’s only been back a minute but seems to be doing a lot better) and already has a coffee planned with someone she met there. She was light on the details, but basically, I think she went into this person’s dream and wanted to talk to them about it? Seems like kind of a strange basis for friendship, so I don’t know.

So. Thoughts? Success stories, failures, horrible one-night stands with other Unusuals? I want to hear it all.

chuckxavier

When you say she was light on the details but you “think” she went into this person’s dream … were you listening in on her thoughts?

thatsahumanperson