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  1. SO LUCKY
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. 1
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  19. Acknowledgements
  20. Keep Reading …
  21. Introduction
  22. PIECE ONE
  23. Parenting – WHAT is that smell?
  24. PIECE TWO
  25. Don’t miss the ‘So Lucky’ podcast series
  26. About the Author
  27. Also by Dawn O’Porter
  28. About the Publisher

Excuse my radio silence, I’ve had a lot on my mind ;) One is how I can get through life being more my authentic self. In the past few weeks I have read so many judgements from strangers about who I am. So little of it is true. There is something I have never shared publicly, because I have been too afraid to be identified by it. I realise now that was wrong. This picture is of me and my sister Verity. Verity died when I was five. She was two years older than me and she was the best big sister in the world. Her death was an accident and it shook my family and damaged us all in ways that may never be fixed. I’ve found talking about Verity impossible for my whole life. Until now. If I don’t admit and accept that her death is a part of who I am then I will never be happy. I’ve tried to pin my identity to other things – my body, a marriage, fame. But none of that was real. What is real is that I think about her every day. I remember the way she smelt, the softness of her skin, the texture of her hair, the sound of her laugh. I remind myself so much of her that I can’t cope with the way that I look. I want to be happier within myself, and that will come by accepting her death, and not trying to hide it for fear of it hurting me even more. This is the first day of my new life. A life where I accept myself for all that I am, and I don’t deny myself my truth.

I am Lauren Pearce. I am sad and often afraid. I must ask for help. I am stronger than I think. I am in control of my life, and with the right people around me, I can get through anything. I miss my sister, I want to be happy. Oh, and I am single (wink wink). Who are you?

Acknowledgements

As always, thanks to my editor Kimberley Young and everyone at HarperCollins, for always encouraging me to push my words to the limits and being extremely patient throughout the process of giving birth to books and babies.

My agent, Adrian Sington, for always having my back and always giving me the best reviews.

Thank you to Clara Francis for helping me work Ruby out. You are a force, and our chats really helped me put her together. You narrating her part for the audiobook is even more magical. Thank you!