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  1. SO LUCKY
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. 1
  5. 2
  6. 3
  7. 4
  8. 5
  9. 6
  10. 7
  11. 8
  12. 9
  13. 10
  14. 11
  15. 12
  16. 13
  17. 14
  18. 15
  19. Acknowledgements
  20. Keep Reading …
  21. Introduction
  22. PIECE ONE
  23. Parenting – WHAT is that smell?
  24. PIECE TWO
  25. Don’t miss the ‘So Lucky’ podcast series
  26. About the Author
  27. Also by Dawn O’Porter
  28. About the Publisher

Lauren: I told him not in a million years. I did ask him why he did it though, why he wanted to marry me when he had no intention of being faithful. Why he slept with MY MOTHER ON MY WEDDING DAY!! You’ll never guess what he said …

Beth: Come on, I need to hear this?

Lauren: He said fame made him feel lonely.

Risky: Oh excuse me while I puke in the bin. DIDDUMS!

Lauren: Yeah, well whatever he meant by that … I’m out!

Beth: Good one ;) What about your mother?

Lauren: Well, she says she will go to therapy. That she will try to work herself out. Honestly? I’ve made peace with her not being a part of my life anymore. I know that might sound terrible, but it’s how I feel. And after all this, I want to have more trust in the way that I feel, make decisions based on my happiness, no one else’s, you know?

Beth: Oh, I know.

Risky: I’m all over that! GO YOU!

Lauren: I feel like I’m finally going to break free from my past. A new era. Self-care (the real kind), friendship and honesty. Who’s with me?

Beth: I’m in.

Risky: IN!

Lauren: Ruby?

Ruby: Sign me up! I’m proud of you, Lauren.

Lauren: I couldn’t have done it without you all. If I ever get married again, you’ll have to be my bridesmaids.

Risky: SO IN!

….Silence….

Lauren: Ruby? Beth? I’M JOKING.

Beth: Jesus, thank God, I nearly had a panic attack.

Ruby: Phew! Anything but that! See you soon, ladies x

15

Ruby

I have only been to Cornwall once since Bonnie was born. I drove there when she was five months old and she screamed the entire way. Upon arrival my mother refused to hold her and asked me to leave after just forty-five minutes. I don’t know what I am expecting this time, but I am in a better place than I was. I want my mother to see that.

Bonnie is extremely excited about going on a train. I am petrified we will run out of snacks, that she will get bored and have a meltdown for the entire five-hour journey to Truro, or that we will get there and my mother will be dead, and that Bonnie will be traumatised for life. But, I am also of the mind that it is important she knows who her grandmother is. I keep having sad thoughts of one day Bonnie not wanting to see me, and her keeping her children away from me because I’m not very nice. I believe that would upset me very much. So on the off chance that is making my mother even sadder than her natural state, I am going to give this a try.