Back Raphael, Painter in Rome: a Novel
Chapters (75)
  1. Front Cover
  2. Half-Title Page
  3. Title Page
  4. Copyright Page
  5. Dedication
  6. Prologue
  7. Chapter I
  8. Chapter II
  9. Chapter III
  10. Chapter IV
  11. Chapter V
  12. Chapter VI
  13. Chapter VII
  14. Chapter VIII
  15. Chapter IX
  16. Chapter X
  17. Chapter XI
  18. Chapter XII
  19. Chapter XIII
  20. Chapter XIV
  21. Chapter XV
  22. Chapter XVI
  23. Chapter XVII
  24. Chapter XVIII
  25. Chapter XIX
  26. Chapter XX
  27. Chapter XXI
  28. Chapter XXII
  29. Chapter XXIII
  30. Chapter XXIV
  31. Chapter XXV
  32. Chapter XXVI
  33. Chapter XXVII
  34. Chapter XXVIII
  35. Chapter XXIX
  36. Chapter XXX
  37. Chapter XXXI
  38. Chapter XXXII
  39. Chapter XXXIII
  40. Chapter XXXIV
  41. Chapter XXXV
  42. Chapter XXXVI
  43. Chapter XXXVII
  44. Chapter XXXVIII
  45. Chapter XXXIX
  46. Chapter XL
  47. Chapter XLI
  48. Chapter XLII
  49. Chapter XLIII
  50. Chapter XLIV
  51. Chapter XLV
  52. Chapter XLVI
  53. Chapter XLVII
  54. Chapter XLVIII
  55. Chapter XLIX
  56. Chapter L
  57. Chapter LI
  58. Chapter LII
  59. Chapter LIII
  60. Chapter LIV
  61. Chapter LV
  62. Chapter LVI
  63. Chapter LVII
  64. Chapter LVIII
  65. Chapter LIX
  66. Chapter LX
  67. Chapter LXI
  68. Chapter LXII
  69. Chapter LXIII
  70. Chapter LXIV
  71. Epilogue
  72. Coda
  73. Note
  74. Acknowledgments
  75. About the Author

Wiping her hands on her skirts, she came forward and took that tondo from me. Her lips parted. “Is this how you see me?”

I shook my head. “It’s how you are.”

My Madonna della Seggiola tondo in hand, she leaned her hip against the floury edge of the counter and gazed into her own painted features.

Forget Dante. Forget Petrarch. Forget Aeschylus. Forget anyone else. “There’s something I must tell you.” My mother always told me that when you present yourself to a lady, you must present yourself as you are, honestly and fully. If she accepts you, good. If not, bow and take your leave. “When we met,” I said, “I had the honor of presenting myself as a painter from the Vatican, but I must regretfully inform you that the title is no longer mine—or if it is for the moment, it soon will not be. I don’t have a shop. I don’t have a patron. I have no position on which to stand. I’ll never achieve my destiny of being the greatest painter—not in history, not of this time, not on this peninsula, not even inside the last building in which I worked. If you accept me, you doom yourself to be the wife of a painter of portraits and devotionals, nothing more, selling my wares to any man willing to part with a soldo or two. What I can vow is that I will spend the rest of my days trying to keep my promise to your father to fulfill your destiny. Without the power of the Vatican behind me, I don’t know whether I can make you immortal, but I promise to never stop trying. I’ll paint you and paint you and paint you on every panel and altarpiece, on every bread box and wine barrel I find.” I dropped to one knee. “I present myself to you, Margherita Luti, as a humble beggar of your hand.”

She looked up from the tondo as if in a daze. “What about Rome?”

“I’ve given that up, as I should’ve long ago. You were right. That city destroys everything good. I don’t want what it has to offer. I don’t want anything but you.”

“But you can’t leave Rome.”

“I was wrong, ’Gita, you were right, I want to stay here, in Siena, with you.”

She shook her head. “I was the one who was wrong. I only said that when I thought you were just some painter.”

“I am just some painter.”

“That was before I saw this.” She held up the tondo. “Is this the kind of thing you put up on the walls of the Vatican?”

“Yes. No.” I was beginning to feel foolish, still down on one knee. “Different.”

“Are your paintings in the Vatican as good as this?”

I heard my mother’s voice: be honest. “Better.”

“Then, we have to go back.” She grabbed my traveling bag off my shoulder and started shoving in knives, recipes, a few fresh rolls . . .