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Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

The corners of Beth’s mouth lift, then drop, the effort of smiling seemingly too much. But she nods and gestures to the kitchen door. Kat doesn’t have any difficulty finding her own smile. This is what she’s been hoping for since she first saw Beth’s picture on MyNeighbour. An invitation into Beth’s home. And now Beth is the vulnerable one. She slides open the kitchen door, gives Luna a quick pat, then drops the knife safely into its block. By the time she turns round, Beth is slumped on one of the four bar stools lined up against the island unit.

‘Um, can I get you anything? Glass of water?’ Kat asks tentatively. It’s strange to be stood in Beth’s kitchen, playing the host, but it’s also a golden opportunity to get closer to this woman who has occupied her thoughts for the last eleven days, and on some level, the last eighteen years.

‘Thank you,’ Beth whispers. ‘I’m not normally …’ She hangs her head, but more in exhaustion than shame. Kat uses the opportunity to feel for her phone, and is relieved to find it in the back pocket of her jeans.

‘We all have difficult days,’ she says, slipping the phone out, taking a clandestine photo, then putting it away again. She turns to the cupboards and tries to guess which one holds the glasses. The units are navy blue and gleam under a strip of LED lighting. There are no handles on the cupboard doors and Kat wonders if her touch will leave a smear. ‘Is your husband here?’ she asks, pushing lightly on the door above the wine rack. Her logic pays off. There are dozens of glasses inside, all sparkling, and regimentally lined up according to their purpose.

‘He’s in Dublin,’ Beth murmurs. ‘Business trip.’

Kat’s mind races. Beth’s children are here – Kat heard the TV playing in the room off the entrance hall – but otherwise she’s alone while that angry kid is out there somewhere. But telling Beth about him could make things worse. She takes the glass over to the sink.

‘There’s a filter water tap.’ Beth’s voice, small and dulled, floats over Kat’s shoulder. ‘You just need to push the lever back.’ Kat wonders how Beth can worry about water impurities when she can’t stand up straight, but she follows the instructions, then slides the full glass across the island. The worktop is made of one of those composite materials, quartz or Corian, and shines white under the three brushed copper lights that hang down from the ceiling. It’s perfectly clean except for the area where Beth is sitting, which is blemished by tiny red splatters arcing around her.

‘Shall I get a cloth? Wipe that up?’

Beth looks down, then careers backwards, almost losing her balance on the stool. ‘Oh God, I was eating raspberries. I didn’t see …’