Back My Perfect Friend
Chapters (93)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Sarah Clarke
  4. Title Page
  5. Copyright
  6. Dedication
  7. Note to Readers
  8. Prologue
  9. December 2021
  10. Chapter 1
  11. Chapter 2
  12. Chapter 3
  13. Chapter 4
  14. Chapter 5
  15. January 2003
  16. Chapter 6
  17. December 2021
  18. Chapter 7
  19. Chapter 8
  20. February 2003
  21. Chapter 9
  22. December 2021
  23. Chapter 10
  24. Chapter 11
  25. Chapter 12
  26. March 2003
  27. Chapter 13
  28. December 2021
  29. Chapter 14
  30. Chapter 15
  31. Chapter 16
  32. Chapter 17
  33. April 2003
  34. Chapter 18
  35. December 2021
  36. Chapter 19
  37. Chapter 20
  38. Chapter 21
  39. Chapter 22
  40. April 2003
  41. Chapter 23
  42. December 2021
  43. Chapter 24
  44. Chapter 25
  45. Chapter 26
  46. April 2003
  47. Chapter 27
  48. December 2021
  49. Chapter 28
  50. Chapter 29
  51. Chapter 30
  52. Chapter 31
  53. Chapter 32
  54. Chapter 33
  55. Chapter 34
  56. May 2003
  57. Chapter 35
  58. December 2021
  59. Chapter 36
  60. May 2003
  61. Chapter 37
  62. December 2021
  63. Chapter 38
  64. Chapter 39
  65. Chapter 40
  66. Chapter 41
  67. Chapter 42
  68. Chapter 43
  69. Chapter 44
  70. Chapter 45
  71. Chapter 46
  72. Chapter 47
  73. Chapter 48
  74. Chapter 49
  75. Chapter 50
  76. April 2003
  77. Chapter 51
  78. December 2021
  79. Chapter 52
  80. June 2003
  81. Chapter 53
  82. December 2021
  83. Chapter 54
  84. Chapter 55
  85. Chapter 56
  86. January 2022
  87. Chapter 57
  88. Epilogue
  89. A Letter from Sarah Clarke
  90. Keep Reading …
  91. Acknowledgements
  92. Dear Reader …
  93. About the Publisher

Mark stares inside the dimly lit flat. The carpet is grimy – mud, he hopes – and the smell is rancid. Sweat, weed, sick and booze; all mixed together like some hideous anti-perfume. Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea after all. ‘Can we just talk here?’

‘Don’t be a prick.’ The man lumbers back into the flat, leaving the door open. Mark sighs – reminds himself that Jon came and went safely from this place for years – and follows him into the front room. A couple of kids are hunched over gaming controllers, Call of Duty crashing out of the TV, and an older guy is slumped in an armchair, eyes wide, like he’s been zapped frozen by some Disney villain. ‘Yeah?’ Rudy says, ignoring the guy and easing himself down onto the chair’s arm.

‘Well,’ Mark starts, feeling more sober now than he’d like. ‘I’ve got some bad news.’

‘I heard about Jon dying the other night,’ Rudy says, ‘if that’s what you mean.’ He says it so casually, without a hint of grief or guilt. The guy must know it was his gear that Jon was shooting up, and he still doesn’t give a toss.

‘Heroin overdose, they reckon,’ Mark lies, suddenly desperate to cause a reaction. Yes, Jon was just some old homeless bloke with a smack habit, but he was also kind. Generous, despite having nothing; loyal to Rudy for a good five years. Mark shouldn’t be the only one mourning him. But his plan backfires because it’s shame he wants to see, not laughter.

‘Fucking dickhead.’ Rudy chuckles. ‘You’d think he’d have worked out how to do it right by now.’ Then he straightens out his face. ‘Anyway, what do you actually want?’

What Mark actually wants is to scream at the guy, tell him he’s a disrespectful piece of shit who deserves a fucking kicking. But Rudy looks like he could bench-press Mark without breaking a sweat, so he keeps his mouth shut.

‘You after some brown too?’ Rudy asks, mistaking Mark’s silence for embarrassment. He walks over to an IKEA chest of drawers in the corner of the room, the wood veneer peeling at the edges, and curls his fingers around the top drawer.

‘No,’ Mark says quickly. Why do people keep assuming he’s a smackhead?

‘Oh.’ Rudy screws up his face. ‘You after Jon’s job, then. Is that it?’

‘No, I …’

Rudy pushes air through his nose like a horse. ‘Well what the fuck do you want? Because all I’m seeing is a scrawny ginger pole wasting my time.’