Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
Mark wonders if Jon’s dealer misses his loyal servant now. If he even knows Jon’s dead. Or that it was his smack that killed him. Not that it was the heroin exactly, Mark remembers through his vodka fug. It was the clumsy draw, caused by the bitch forcing Jon to drink too much of Mark’s booze. But the smack played its part. If he hadn’t been jacking up, he wouldn’t be dead; that’s for sure.
He knows the address off by heart. He’s had the bit of paper Jon wrote it on for long enough, and he had to recite it to the guy with the bolt cutters only last week. Jon always insisted his dealer – Rudy – was a good guy, but that there was maybe a five per cent chance that things could turn nasty. Those were good odds, he’d explained, in the illegal drugs trade. But still, he liked someone knowing where he was.
Maybe he should go there now, Mark thinks, tell Rudy what happened to Jon. Not to blame him of course – that wouldn’t be clever – but to let him know. Just passing on information about a mutual friend. And if he manages to ignite a flicker of guilt, a momentary sense of remorse, that can’t be a bad thing. It’s about time the relentless ‘what if’ gnawed at someone else’s gut.
He pushes off the bench and pauses, giving his legs time to catch up with his brain signals. Then he drops the empty bottle of vodka in the bin, and heads back onto the street.
Ingrine House is an ugly 1960s tower block striped with dirty concrete slabs and lines of grimy windows, some lit up yellow but most in eerie darkness. Mark pauses outside. It feels like the whole place is screaming at him to stay the fuck away, but of course that’s just his imagination playing tricks, so he pushes on the main door to the block and keeps his head down as he trudges up the stairs. He feels a sudden urge to pee. Too much vodka, he decides, definitely not fear, because what has he got to be scared of? Rudy was Jon’s mate; he’ll be grateful for Mark stopping by. Mark sets his jaw, takes a breath and knocks on the flat’s peeling front door. It opens a couple of inches. ‘Yeah?’ a voice floats out.
‘Looking for Rudy,’ Mark says in a low voice, even though the communal hallway is empty. ‘I’m a mate of Clapham Jon’s.’ That’s what he was known as, not exactly imaginative. Mark waits a moment, then the door swings open. The bloke looks like a bouncer. His chest is wide and curved, and he’s wearing a thick gold chain around his neck.
‘In here,’ he says.