Chapters (93)
- Cover
- About the Author
- Also by Sarah Clarke
- Title Page
- Copyright
- Dedication
- Note to Readers
- Prologue
- December 2021
- Chapter 1
- Chapter 2
- Chapter 3
- Chapter 4
- Chapter 5
- January 2003
- Chapter 6
- December 2021
- Chapter 7
- Chapter 8
- February 2003
- Chapter 9
- December 2021
- Chapter 10
- Chapter 11
- Chapter 12
- March 2003
- Chapter 13
- December 2021
- Chapter 14
- Chapter 15
- Chapter 16
- Chapter 17
- April 2003
- Chapter 18
- December 2021
- Chapter 19
- Chapter 20
- Chapter 21
- Chapter 22
- April 2003
- Chapter 23
- December 2021
- Chapter 24
- Chapter 25
- Chapter 26
- April 2003
- Chapter 27
- December 2021
- Chapter 28
- Chapter 29
- Chapter 30
- Chapter 31
- Chapter 32
- Chapter 33
- Chapter 34
- May 2003
- Chapter 35
- December 2021
- Chapter 36
- May 2003
- Chapter 37
- December 2021
- Chapter 38
- Chapter 39
- Chapter 40
- Chapter 41
- Chapter 42
- Chapter 43
- Chapter 44
- Chapter 45
- Chapter 46
- Chapter 47
- Chapter 48
- Chapter 49
- Chapter 50
- April 2003
- Chapter 51
- December 2021
- Chapter 52
- June 2003
- Chapter 53
- December 2021
- Chapter 54
- Chapter 55
- Chapter 56
- January 2022
- Chapter 57
- Epilogue
- A Letter from Sarah Clarke
- Keep Reading …
- Acknowledgements
- Dear Reader …
- About the Publisher
One of the kids snorts, but the clatter of his controller doesn’t slow down; apparently Mark isn’t worth that amount of distraction. As Mark listens to the throb of gunfire coming from the TV, he feels the air around him grow heavy. He knows he should just go home to the squat, celebrate scaring the bitch with his note and fall asleep on the couch. After years of working for him, Jon never stopped being wary of Rudy, so that should tell him something.
But he’s pissed off that no one is taking an ounce of blame for Jon’s death. ‘Thought you’d appreciate the warning, your smack killing people,’ he mutters.
‘What are you saying?’ Rudy asks, his voice gruffer now. He tilts onto his feet and takes a few steps towards Mark. Their noses are almost touching.
‘And maybe a sorry would be nice.’
Rudy shoves Mark hard in the chest. Mark lists backwards, and it’s as though the movement wakes him up. What the hell is he doing? Why is he riling this guy? He reaches out to steady himself, but there’s nothing to grab on to, and he stumbles backwards himself, falling onto the rancid carpet in front of the sofa. He can hear the kids laughing now, dropping their controllers, the real-life violence unfolding in front of them finally enough to warrant their interest.
Mark lifts his hands to his face, palms up, part protection, part surrender. He sucks in air as Rudy’s foot connects with his ribcage. More kicks rain down, a heavy trainer against his ribs, his hip bone, the backs of his legs. He draws his knees into his chest, and pushes his face into the carpet, the stench of piss rising up his nostrils. The guy could pull a knife any moment, puncture his lungs or heart. He could bleed out on this floor. The images flood the backs of his eyelids as he prays for it to stop.
And finally, thank fuck, it does.
‘Now get up,’ Rudy growls. ‘Get out of my flat. And don’t ever disrespect me like that again.’ He kicks Mark again, a final warning.
Mark flips his head around, grimacing with pain. Then he rolls onto his shins, a knoll of damaged flesh, and gingerly pushes up to standing. He’s shaking like an addict in withdrawal and his torso is throbbing with pain, but the adrenalin is still coursing through him. Even now, fear and aggression want to duel.
‘Are you still here?’ Rudy asks, his eyes smirking now he’s reasserted his status.