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Chapters (100)
  1. Magma
  2. Title Page
  3. Copyright
  4. Dedication
  5. Reykjavik 2007
  6. Chlamydia
  7. Bachelors I
  8. Vegetarians
  9. The Ex I
  10. The Bike
  11. Willpower I
  12. Willpower II
  13. Graduation Party
  14. His Children
  15. Hygiene
  16. Mom
  17. Ghosts of the Past
  18. The Ex II
  19. Girlfriends
  20. Butthole
  21. Love
  22. The Suburbs
  23. Privilege
  24. The Game I
  25. The Game II
  26. Prevention I
  27. Non Grata
  28. Oral Sex
  29. Plato’s Moon Child
  30. Vanity I
  31. Internet Friends I
  32. Bachelors II
  33. The Ex III
  34. The Ex IV
  35. Ephemera
  36. Deflowering
  37. Academia
  38. Internet Friends II
  39. Prevention II
  40. Limits I
  41. Limits II
  42. Birthday
  43. Bad
  44. Equation
  45. Vanity II
  46. Wedding
  47. He Loves Me
  48. The Sticking Place
  49. Blue Balls
  50. The Ex V
  51. Woman Warrior
  52. Words
  53. Lessons from History
  54. Cycle
  55. Love
  56. Contract
  57. Household
  58. Books
  59. Compromise I
  60. The Natural Habitat of Vegetarians
  61. Childhood
  62. Primitive
  63. Special Place
  64. Principles
  65. Growing Pains
  66. Treasure Hunt
  67. Compromise II
  68. Depression
  69. Alchemy
  70. Knowledge
  71. Disapparation
  72. Redhead
  73. Capulet
  74. Shame
  75. Kindness
  76. Hibernation
  77. Magma
  78. Mission
  79. Disappointment
  80. The Situation
  81. Out and About
  82. Appointment I
  83. Ground Zero
  84. Appointment II
  85. Desire
  86. Cold Slab
  87. Resolution
  88. Balance
  89. Untoward Effects
  90. Sleeping Beauty
  91. Optimism
  92. Drought
  93. Absence
  94. Going Down
  95. Situation
  96. Appointment III
  97. Crossroads
  98. Afterlife
  99. Cosmogenesis
  100. Back Cover

It wasn’t good or bad, just uncomfortable, and I was so stressed the entire time. I worried that his penis might be like a plunger and when he took it out of me, shit would just empty all over the bed. But that didn’t happen. When he was finished, he was so euphoric that I couldn’t do anything other than feel happy along with him. I want him to believe I’m the best in bed.

Limits II

Limits II

He’s started to do it regularly—ride me in the ass. Once, he went from there straight into my pussy. I asked him to stop, asked him if I could just get a washcloth. I pictured his penis, the little clots of fecal matter that clung to it as it slid into my vagina. It was like an extreme version of wiping in the wrong direction. But he was so horny and so hungry for me that he couldn’t stop before he got off.

Birthday

Birthday

I went to my friend Sigrún’s birthday party. He didn’t want to come along. “It’s your friend’s birthday, I don’t see why I have to go.” I’m not his girlfriend; I don’t have any right to drag him to some girly party. I’m never invited on the rare occasion that he actually goes out with his friends. I only exist to him when it’s just us two.

It was a pretty big party; Sigrún and Emma live together in an apartment building on the west side of town—and the party was a big hit. I had a couple of cocktails and was in a really good mood until I saw her. The Ex was in Sigrún’s class in high school and she’d come with a few of her friends. She greeted me, and I responded as coldly as I could and then ignored her aggressively. The Ex wasn’t there for very long, anyway; Sigrún and I are much closer than those two. I refilled my glass again and again, and the wine opened the floodgates. Tears, forcing themselves to the surface, uncontrollable. I closed myself in a bedroom and started to cry and cry and cry and cry. I couldn’t stop, even though I knew I was acting like an idiot. A little while later, all the guests left, and I didn’t know whether I was the reason or if they’d just gone downtown.