Back Look
Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Like you’re a Lost Boy,” Kiley says. “Peter Pan, you know? I played Wendy once, in the musical. They tried to cast me as Tiger Lily, but I rebelled.”

“Racism,” Owen says wisely.

“Racism,” Kiley agrees. Lulu recognizes the tone in her voice, a very slight warning, and it takes her a second to remember from where: When Mr. Winters screened a clip of Birth of a Nation and asked them to debate whether it was appropriate to interact with racist art, or if he should have left it off the syllabus entirely. Kiley sounded exactly as wary as she responded to his questions then as she does talking to Owen now.

“Whatever,” she continues. “The joke was on them. It turned out that director had been doing all sorts of other, um, inappropriate stuff, and my complaint was just the thing that broke the camel’s back, or whatever. He was a full-time creep. Children’s theater is full of ’em.”

“Is that why you quit acting?” Owen asks. “Because of the casting thing?”

Kiley does another spin. “I wasn’t a very good actress,” she says. “And at the time I was super serious about ballet, so it made sense to focus on that.”

Ryan kicks the skateboard up to his hand like he thinks the conversation is done.

“Must have sucked,” Owen says.

“The joke was also on me,” Kiley says. “As it turned out, I hated playing Wendy. The whole play is fucked up, but Wendy’s the worst part. Everybody else gets to be a Lost Boy, and in Neverland Wendy has to be everyone’s mother?”

That’s not really what Owen was asking, Lulu knows, but it’s interesting to see how adept Kiley is at shifting a conversation without seeming to have taken offense. He wasn’t going to change the subject, so she changed it for him.

Under other circumstances, Lulu might be trying to learn her secrets.

Owen hops down into the pool and goes to stand by Kiley’s side. She takes her cue, and butts her head against his shoulder before sliding into his embrace.

“I think we’re all Lost Boys here,” Owen says.

“Lost boys and girls,” Cass adds.

“Lost people,” Lulu chimes in.

“Lost weekends,” Ryan says. “Hey, Owen, when you showed up, you said you brought beer?”

In fact, Owen brought a six-pack, so Ryan and Lulu and Cass and him have a beer. When Ryan offers Kiley one, like they’re his to offer, Kiley says, “I don’t drink beer.”

“Then why did you bring it?”

“It was Owen’s call.”

Owen says, “I’m the one with the ID.”