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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

Why are you even talking to her, Lulu types, and then deletes. Of course Bea wants to be friends with Kiley. Kiley’s beautiful and cool and she’s dating Bea’s boyfriend’s best friend. She’s the kind of girl who messes up and then apologizes instead of freaking out and picking fights and making everything in her life elaborately weird.

We are. It’s just still weird, Lulu sends instead.

Well she’s not my BFF. You are!!!!! Bea says.

Lulu believes her. For now.

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

WHEN RYAN TEXTS Lulu, Hotel has a reservation for you today, you gonna keep it, on the twenty-seventh, she feels like she has to go. If she doesn’t, who knows what bullshit Ryan will try to pull on Cass. He’s such a baby.

Cass does kind of let him get away with it, though.

Lulu finds Ryan, Owen, and Kiley sitting around in the lobby, which has been furnished with plush armchairs. She curls herself into one, grateful that its wide, high back keeps her from craning her head to see if Cass is walking in the door.

Instead she hears it when Cass enters: the whoosh of the door opening, and then the sound of her boots on the floor. Cass walks up to them and pauses next to Lulu, hovering for a bare moment. Lulu’s eyes find the cup of coffee in Cass’s hand.

“Can I?” she asks.

“Sure,” Cass says.

Lulu lets their fingers brush in the handoff; she puts her mouth on the cup where Cass’s mouth has been and pinks it with her lipstick. She licks a stray drop of coffee, pale with cream, from the plastic lid. She hands it back. The whole exchange takes maybe fifteen seconds, but Lulu feels like the rest of the room freezes, just briefly, to allow it to happen.

“I would have gotten you some if I’d known you wanted,” Cass says.

“It’s fine,” Lulu tells her. “Next time.”

Owen says, “Lulu always wants coffee.”

Los Angeles is in the middle of a funny rush of desert weather, warm dry days and long, clear nights, and Cass is dressed uncharacteristically softly, in a loose white shift that stirs in the breeze that followed her through the door. It gives Lulu glimpses of the outline of her shoulders, her hip, the curve of one thigh. It’s very distracting.

“What’s up, Ry?” Cass asks. “Your message made it sound like there was something, like, happening.”

Lulu’s glad that she’s not the only one who noticed the demand in his tone.

“Something is happening. It’s by the pool,” Ryan says. He laughs. “I mean, it is the pool, actually.” He nods for them to follow him.

Lulu sees it before she understands what she’s seeing. It’s just so— She’s gotten so used to—

The pool is a pool now. Full of water.