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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

Lulu takes this in. “Does that mean when you brought me—” she starts. She can’t bring herself to say: that was the first time you’d done that. The night takes on a whole new cast. That Cass just brought her. And then let her bring Owen the next time.

“Like I said,” Cass says. “You seemed like an okay stranger.”

Owen settles himself next to them. Next to Cass, that is. Not Lulu.

“Are you going to learn to skate, Owen?” Cass asks.

“Nah.”

“Owen broke his arm skateboarding when he was ten,” Lulu reports. She still knows him so stupid well.

“Eleven,” Owen corrects.

“Ten,” she says. She wasn’t there, but this is one of the first stories Owen’s dad ever told her. “At your tenth birthday, when Gumball Eyeball came to play a backyard set and you fell in front of—”

“Ten,” Owen agrees. “And don’t make me relive it, god.”

He puts a hand over his face, dramatic. Lulu laughs. She can’t remember the last time they joked around this easily.

Cass can’t handle this news. “You had Gumball Eyeball play your birthday party?” she says. “My god, I would have died. I was so obsessed with them in elementary school.”

“I almost did die,” Owen says. “Kind of literally. I was lucky that the arm was the only actual casualty. I was so excited when they showed I just straight-up forgot I was on a skateboard. Gravity did not.”

“You must have some parents,” Cass says. Lulu wonders if she doesn’t remember Owen and Ryan meeting, talking about their dads. Or maybe she didn’t know to notice that type of thing—what someone might be sensitive about. Every little nuance of every conversation.

“My dad knows people,” Owen says.

“Hey!” Ryan calls from the pool’s belly. “I almost forgot. New rule. No parents at The Hotel.”

Cass looks around in mock confusion. “I don’t see any parents, Ry,” she says.

“You know what I mean. This place is going to be overrun with Riggses pretty soon, and until that happens, I want to be an orphan when I’m here. No parents. No family. None of that bullshit.”

Kiley leaps off the skateboard and does a spin. She lands on the balls of her feet, silent, like a cat. She raises her arms above her head, an easy stretch, and Lulu’s heart throbs and contracts at the idea of Owen and Cass watching her move right now. How beautiful she is; how easy she looks in the length of her body. Lulu has always wanted to be lanky like that, long and lean. It hurts to think about how much thinner she could be, if—if. She doesn’t want to do any of the ugly stuff that would get her there, but that doesn’t stop her from wanting the thinness itself.