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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

They go down to the tent, which is still in the pool. Cass gets stoned, stretches out on her back, and zones out, rubbing the corner of a thin, gauzy blanket carefully against her cheek.

It turns to the golden hour. Light spills through the canvas, turning her into a creature made of shadow and cream. She’s dappled with shocks of color, streaks and splotches of pink and red and yellow. A breeze blows through the tent’s unzipped flap. The air is thin and dry, soft with the scent of sage that grows wild around the property, at least where Ryan’s gardeners haven’t cut it back.

Lulu didn’t see Ryan bring the camera in with them, but then he lifts it to his eye. Because it’s digital, there’s no sound when he takes a picture. Cass doesn’t even seem to notice he’s doing it. He said he was documenting The Hotel, but Lulu has only ever really seen him take pictures of girls.

“Ryan says there’s a curse on this place,” she says, mostly to get Cass’s attention.

But Cass keeps her eyes closed. “Yeah,” she agrees. “He says that.”

“You don’t believe in it either?”

“No one should believe in it,” Cass says. “But Ryan likes talking about it because it makes him sound fearless. As if it’s anything to be afraid of. It isn’t. It’s just— You know how it is.”

“I don’t,” Lulu says.

“Beautiful women and their faces. What aren’t they responsible for?”

“I’ve never said it was anyone’s fault,” Ryan says.

“If there is a curse, she’s the one who cursed it. Connie.”

“Okay, Cass, fine. Sorry for being the patriarchy.”

Lulu bristles on Cass’s behalf at Ryan’s tone, which has the hint of a sneer. But Cass doesn’t seem to hear that, or if she does, it doesn’t bother her.

“It’s not your fault,” she says. “It’s just how it is when people tell stories about girls. Like they’re unnatural forces or something. Witches. If she was beautiful, of course she had to end up cursed.”

Lulu feels like she’s lost track of the conversation. She turns to Ryan to see what he’s making of it, and catches him in the act of taking a picture of her. Which means that he’s noticed it, probably, that she isn’t hiding it the way she wanted to—the way Lulu’s face looks when she looks at Cass.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

“YOU’RE STILL COMING on Friday, right?”

Lulu was already halfway home from her second final before she realized she’d just ditched Bea again. She sent a Flash apology filmed while driving, her saying “B, I’m risking life and limb and the world’s most expensive ticket to apologize, I feel like shit, I’m so sorry,” and didn’t get anything back.