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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

The two of them shifted and twisted, moved against each other without ever managing to lose contact. It was sweltering outside, the air refusing to calm and cool even when it was long past dark, but all Lulu could feel was the burn of desire in her belly, in her fingertips. It sparked her. It lit her up. Someone said something to Sloane about her ex, and Sloane said, “Yeah, she was . . .” and Lulu didn’t hear anything else for a whole minute.

She chatted Owen on Flash. Might have an adventure in mind for later, she said. That thing we talked about. A girl. I could send you pictures?

No fair, he replied. Stuck on the bus tonight. Can’t even really jerk off in peace. A picture of the cramp of a bunk, the bulge in his sweats. Lulu was dizzy, she was drunk, she couldn’t be expected to keep track of all the things in the world she wanted to touch and be touched by.

That’s going to be tough for you, then, she said. Unless you tell me not to.

Just keep me in the loop, he said.

It wasn’t even hard, Lulu kept thinking. It wasn’t hard at all, with a girl who wanted what you wanted. With a girl who wanted you.

The party got late, got loose. Lulu went inside to make herself a drink. She lingered in the kitchen.

Sloane followed her in.

“So hot out there,” she said. She lifted her hair from her neck and twisted it away from her face. A bead of sweat ran down the side of her neck, traced a lazy pattern across the sheen of her skin.

“I think the AC is on upstairs,” Lulu said. “If you want to, like, take a break.”

“I feel like I’ve mostly been talking to you anyway,” Sloane said. “I doubt anyone would miss us if we went missing.”

“No one’s home,” Lulu said. “We can—wherever.”

She doesn’t remember much of the next few minutes—what they talked about, or where they walked. Lulu doesn’t remember anything except the fever in her blood and how she knew, she knew that soon she would have Sloane’s hands on her to soothe it, to draw it out and set it down.

They found a bedroom. Lulu let Sloane kiss her for long, hot minutes before she explained about Owen, and pulled out her phone.

“We can do whatever we want,” Lulu said, even though that wasn’t the deal exactly. They hadn’t really made a deal. “He just wants to know what I get up to.”

“I don’t like the idea of sharing you,” Sloane said. Her hand was on Lulu’s hip, palm pressed against her belly, and it was hard to concentrate on anything that wasn’t that single, physical fact. “I’m sure he doesn’t either.”