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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Where did you find those?” Owen asks

Cass points to a pile in a lounge chair, and Owen proceeds to wrap himself in four towels: one for each leg, one around his torso, and another around his shoulders like a cape.

“Nice look,” Ryan says. “But also, the pool’s not the only thing that got an upgrade. The rooms are ready too.”

The lobby is still mostly empty, but Ryan really has set up rooms for each of them: robes in the closets, chocolates on the pillows. There’s no shampoo in the shower, though, let alone conditioner. Removed from the thrill of the moment, Lulu thoroughly regrets getting her hair wet. There’s no way it’s going to dry presentably. Her makeup is a lost cause.

At least the water pressure is strong, though, and the spray comes out hot. She stands under it and tries to adjust to this latest version of The Hotel. It’s not like Cass didn’t warn her that it was always changing. It’s just that she wasn’t entirely ready for this iteration, for it to stop being a safe, in-between space and start looking like everywhere else in the world.

She startles when someone knocks on the shower’s glass door.

Cass is standing on the other side, looking uncertain. “There’s a drought on,” she says when Lulu opens it. “I didn’t want to waste—”

“Come in,” Lulu says. “Come in.”

Afterward they can’t stop laughing. Lulu doesn’t know what’s so funny, only that everything is: this improbable girl in this improbable place, the late afternoon light slanting through the window, Cass’s stick legs and knobby wrists poking out from the ostentatiously fluffy robe she’s wrapped in, the shape of the spot her damp hair leaves on the pillow.

Cass eats Lulu’s chocolate and kisses her when Lulu complains. We could do this, Lulu thinks. We are doing this. Something in her stomach zips tight, and she has no idea if it’s excitement or fear.

Because she’s done this before—with Owen, who’s probably kissing Kiley right now, too serious to laugh about it. Because she did this with Owen and then he got tired of her and she got tired of him, and there’s nothing there anymore. Or not nothing. But not enough.

She’s never done this with a girl before, and it’s different, and it’s so good.

“Cass?” Ryan calls in the hall. “Cass, where did you go?”

Cass knows better than to keep Ryan waiting. She goes to the door and pokes her head out. “Here!” she calls.

Ryan brushes past her into Lulu’s room. Lulu doesn’t like the idea that Ryan can just insert himself into their moment like this. We’re on his property, she reminds herself.