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Chapters (57)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Epigraph
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. CHAPTER FOUR
  8. CHAPTER FIVE
  9. CHAPTER SIX
  10. CHAPTER SEVEN
  11. CHAPTER EIGHT
  12. CHAPTER NINE
  13. CHAPTER TEN
  14. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  15. CHAPTER TWELVE
  16. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  17. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  18. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  19. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  20. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  21. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  22. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  23. CHAPTER TWENTY
  24. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  25. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  26. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  27. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  28. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  30. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  33. CHAPTER THIRTY
  34. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  35. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  36. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  37. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  38. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  39. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  40. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  42. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  43. CHAPTER FORTY
  44. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  45. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  46. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  47. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  48. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  49. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  50. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  51. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  52. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  53. CHAPTER FIFTY
  54. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  55. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  56. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  57. What’s next onyour reading list?

The concrete hollow where Lulu and Owen slept that first night, nearly a month ago now, and where Kiley taught herself to skateboard and Ryan photographed Cass draped in blankets in the tent—it’s submerged now. Swallowed. Drowned.

“What are you waiting for?” Ryan asks. “Let’s swim.”

Owen tugs his shirt over his head without thinking twice. Lulu can’t even imagine that kind of freedom in her skin.

She distracts herself by watching Cass as she slips off her shift. Lulu is so busy looking that she doesn’t even have time to think about the fact that she’s taking off her own clothes, skinning gracelessly out of her jeans. She’s vaguely aware that she’s glad she decided not to wear a thong today, that the chlorine probably won’t do her bra any favors, that she’s maybe three pounds heavier than the last time Owen saw her mostly naked, but she’s still pretty tan, so—

Owen isn’t looking. He’s the first one in the water, cannonballing in with a splash.

“Go!” Ryan is yelling. “Go go go go!”

Cass dives in, smooth and easy, and Lulu watches her body disappear into the water. She follows her there.

She understands why Ryan wanted them to do it fast as soon as she’s in. The pool is not heated.

The pool is fucking freezing.

“What the hell!” Owen heaves himself over the edge and onto dry land to tackle Ryan, who’s laughing too hard to get away in time. “See, asshole, now you’re all wet too!”

Owen is holding Ryan fast and flinging his hair around, trying to get him as damp as possible.

“Hey!” Kiley says, twisting from the spray. She didn’t jump in either. In fact, she’s still fully clothed. “O, come on, my hair!”

Owen lets up, and Ryan takes the opportunity to go after Kiley.

“You think you’re exempt?” he says, wrapping his arms around her and butting his damp head against her neck. “You think you’re too smart for me, Kiley?”

Kiley uses her elbows to keep him away from her head, but it just means he ends up with his face in her boobs.

Lulu looks at Owen, waiting for him to break it up, but that’s not Owen’s style. He doesn’t get bent out of shape about what things look like. He’s not gonna make a big deal out of some roughhousing.

Cass appears at the pool’s lip, wrapped in a towel and carrying another. “Lu,” she says. “Here.”

Lulu swims to the edge and lifts herself up. Cass wraps the towel around her shoulders, her arm lingering as Lulu grabs the edges and pulls them tight. She can see the blue of the veins under Cass’s skin.

“See,” Ryan yelps from where he’s allowed Kiley to maneuver him into a headlock. “There were other surprises! You animals!”