8:41PM: security alarm beeped once as i closed door to mom’s. apartment smelled like bacon. mom said ‘i’m making chicken BLT’s, i can make you one’ and i said ‘no thanks mom, i’m on a roll.’ unloaded whole foods bag near two plates containing loosely assembled sandwiches. stared at a square of yellow cheese complexly, like i was downloading a message from it. blended smoothie. ate 20mg XR adderall. texted colin a lie about not receiving .pdf of lease, so i’ll be coming tuesday. wrote short recommendation for him on trulia.com. sitting at my desk. robotic and panicky. stomach doing acid reflux things.

8:52PM: spelled ‘mexican’ as ‘mescxican’ in tweet about my book being available as an ebook. proofread correctly-spelled tweet until words seemed more like ‘alphabet-shaped lines’ than language.

9:09PM: worried apartment building committee people will google my name. might make liveblog private. printing keith-approved recommendation letter. two out of three recommendations complete. emailed matthew donahoo to outsource writing ‘tao’ recommendation. should’ve considered how un-recommendable i feel before offering to write recommendations, so others wouldn’t have to. i am learning from this. keep thinking ‘i am learning.’ my breath smells a way i’ve smelled on others and avoided saying ‘your breath smells.’ musty/basement-y. going to brush teeth then walk outside, thinking about. something. thinking ‘keep moving.’