When I said ‘if I fail to complete at least one thing besides ‘FedEx lease’ and ‘eat something non-meat/carb based’ today something bad will happen to the five people I think about most’ I meant ‘today’ like ‘from now until I sleep’ not ‘today’ like ‘from now until 11:59pm.’ I think the universe understood that but people reading this might not have, and they are part of the universe, so maybe could effect universe maybe.

11:18pm: I’m on 83S. Ambulance with lights on but no sirens is behind me again, on the same road/in same lane I noticed the same thing a few nights ago.

11:29pm: I’m using liveblog as surrogate boyfriend or something. There is this thing, ‘Harlowe’s monkeys.’ they let hungry baby monkeys pick between a food dispenser and a foodless wire monkey resembling a monkey mom. They always picked the wire mom.

11:33pm: arrived at dad’s. Fake teeth security guard yelled something friendly and incoherent.

11:52pm: slammed hard enough on brakes to make skidding sound before red light.

April 11, 2013

APRIL 11, 2013

12:23am: walked from FedEx to car. Man in taco bell drive thru was cackling.

12:31am: didn’t want to be home yet. Driving to 24-hour grocery store to garner kale and energy drinks for ‘flushing greens through my body’ drink.

12:46am: pulled into parking spot at 24-hour grocery store.

12:54am: bought bunch of kale and four-pack of sugar-free red bull. This was written over a picture of Kim kardashian on cover of ‘star’ magazine: ‘Kim ignores dire health warnings; Getting paid to binge on junk food; She demands a c-section.’ Lady with white hair and ‘leah’ nametag rang me up. There was a card read error. Thought about whole foods cashier from the other day. Leah said ‘you’re not doing it fast enough.’ I went fast and it worked. She said ‘very good.’

1:39am: have just been driving around, listening/singing along to music. Lost focus of goals. I only feel good when I’m driving. That’s false.

3:03AM: ate 10mg adderall and noopept in preparation for beasting out emails/assembling packages to mail tomorrow/exercising.