Get goosebumps/tingles when I listen to Barr. Haven’t listened to this in a long time. Sometimes I like, laugh/cry, not a wet cry. Before I started writing in this I had done that, I was laughing and crying and said ‘what the fuck’ about the last song on the album.

8:26pm: missed exit on 687 turning around. Using written directions via broken phone. Passed nytmes building. The breakup song is good, I like when he goes ‘catharsis is real.’

10:10pm: slow traffic on 95. Passing building that says ‘one stamford forum.’ Looks misspelled. Stopped for gas and to ask for directions earlier. Think I’m in Connecticut. Hope Alec and his friends also encountered traffic. Before I left I thought I had lost phone and quickly accepted that. I wouldn’t even try to get another one. Life without a phone seems fine. Maybe better. I like not feeling reliant on gmaps for directions, it’s like an adventure, nature hike.

August 12, 2013

AUGUST 12, 2013

1:48am: driving to gas station. Arrived at Alec’s a little before 1am. Was driving up and down his street a few times looking for his house. Knocked on door and rang bell and walked around porch. Left him a note. On my way into city, saw a building with a decorative neon red design that looked like another language. Alien language. What if that was my spaceship and I missed it.

I’m in Rhode Island. Haha. What am I doing in Rhode Island. Rhode Island Rhode Island everywhere and not an Alec to answer his door.