2:25pm: walked out of navy office. disheartening things were said about my age. Disheartening. Talked mostly to man in uniform who said ‘call me ‘rice,” then a lot of things I didn’t understand about enlisting. I asked if he did active duty in other countries and he said he went to Germany and his kids got to come and it was great. I asked what he did now and he said something about working at the desk I was facing. He said he liked it a lot. I said ‘I have my CDL, for truck driving, would that help?’ he made a face like I had said ‘I’m batman.’ he said ‘yeah that’s good, I mean there’s tons of jobs in aviation for driving, but the guy behind me knows more.’ I said ‘could you explain some more to me about college, if I could finish college then, I don’t know.’ he said something I didn’t understand. I said ‘ROTC’ at one point and he said ‘I think you’re too old for that, but maybe not.’ He said ‘so you wanna be a pilot?’ I said ‘I want to be a pilot, planes, I wanna work for NASA someday’ and nodded vigorously. He smiled. He said ‘I wasn’t ever on a ship.’ I said ‘my dad was on a ship, the Joseph p Kennedy, the Cuban missile crisis.’ he looked interested, asked me how much longer I have for college. I said ‘maybe two semesters, but I think I’d need to change my major to physics, I was psychology.’ he said things I didn’t understand but I didn’t know how to ask him to clarify. He said the man behind him was his supervisor and might know more about if I could be a pilot. The supervisor man got off the phone. He seemed younger than me but older than ‘rice.’ He asked if I was a us citizen. Rice said ‘she’s twenty-seven, she got some college.’ Superior guy said ‘what’s your major?’ I said ‘psychology mostly.’ he said ‘that might work, but twenty-seven, I don’t know, twenty-eight.’ I said ‘I heard there were age waivers.’ they nodded. The superior guy said I could do other aviation navigation jobs until I was 32. Rice gave me the number of a lieutenant who knows more. I said ‘should I just go talk to him now?’ Rice said he was usually just walking around but it was better to make an appointment. I thanked them and left. Rice said ‘good luck.’

Walking to FedEx to print resume then am going to walk to organic avenue and apply. Have to pee badly.

2:33pm: keep walking the wrong way. In line for bathroom at library. I want lieutenant whoever to call. Goddamnit. He’s not going to call. Will maybe just print out resume here why not oh god oh god.