12:32–4:19PM: sat in backyard and smoked two cigarettes. thought of something: someone should say ‘THERE ARE ONLY FOUR LEFT OF [whatever it is] IN THE WORLD’ and sell [whatever it is] to four people, along with a letter that says ‘i lied. there are infinite [whatever it is]. only the five of us know the secret. now it will be valued more.’

is that what oil is…are they doing that with oil…

i thought of something else interesting but i didn’t write it down.

wanted to be sure to include that i heard a squirrel or small animal chewing during cigarette break but now that seems stupid but maybe now it’s okay, since now you know i thought this was stupid.

last night i thought i’d be going back to mom’s and left the envelopes i need to put the packages in there. will not make it to post office today anyway. starting to feel disadvantaged by not sleeping, i think.

NEW PLAN OF ACTION:

•  return call from macmedics

•  procure continuous water flow device for alvie

•  get envelopes from mom’s and pack things [NOTE: I FORGET IF THE POST OFFICE RUNS ON SATURDAY. IF IT DOESN’T I HAVE TO FEDEX EVERYTHING AS PUNISHMENT FOR BEING LATE].

•  make smoothie/eat something, think kale/cantaloupe smoothie yesterday morning is last thing i ate

•  do emails if you feel coherent

have been stalling via email stress (not anything about people i’ll be emailing, just keep picturing sounding incoherent or like i’m not giving full attention to emailing). writing this down is a step towards pushing through it. i have pushed through ‘stopping rambling things.’ maybe ‘write emails faster’ is next. got on an email kick another time during liveblog. perhaps that reign of peace and glory shall again inherit my inbox.

want to concentrate on driving and not look at phone so i will be updating minimally. feeling good about this shit again.

5:49PM: thought i was in philadelphia and couldn’t deposit check. L.O.L. this is crazy should i just keep not sleeping as a social experiment

6:22PM: texting with colin. progress is happening. going to new york next week for a meeting. also ‘alt citizen’ wants to interview me and have a photo shoot. new york luxury treatment. thought i could go to the walgreens on reisterstown road to buy cigarettes. remembered i’m not near that road.

7:16PM: ate unknown amount noopept and saw ‘blinky things.’ then that stopped. i’ve been sitting in the same spot. feel like i’m on a debilitating hallucinogen but mostly only physically/thoughts are mostly normal. i’m taking the night off after i get alvie’s water source. thought ‘the chrysalis. the 2014 toyota chrysalis: hybrid car that will fly after six weeks in the garage.’

thought ‘going to smoke a coffee and be right back’

going to:

•  alvie water source.

•  mom’s? forget why but it seems good there is food.