9:48PM: treated myself to a nice tall glass of water with crushed ice from the ice-maker/dispenser fridge console. using glass from old apartment. fed cats. alvie is usually the most vocal about being fed and eats the least. he follows me closely while i open cans and i trip on him sometimes in a way that feels like ‘my feet get caught in alvie.’

9:52PM: in tao’s email he said he wanted to get divorced for taxes before april 15, but then i’m like. ‘does he just want to involve himself in the liveblog, he commented that thing about wanting to directly influence liveblog.’ i know that’s not it. i think. i think he’s being honest about taxes. but that would be funny. i would love it, i think, would delight in including it all the more, if he did it to directly influence/place situation in liveblog.

10:47PM: chewed maybe 17mg adderall with front teeth. ate 60mg noopept. i hate how pills/drugs taste at first but then i like it. cats heard noopept bag and ran to me, thinking it was their bag of ‘greenies’ treats, no doubt. i gave them treats. now we are all partying. bathroom light is no longer doing a strobe light effect, though. had to fix it. couldn’t take it anymore. out-partied by yet another bathroom light: the megan boyle story.

thought some version of this as i sealed noopept bag and distributed ‘greenies:’ for my next update i’ll need to say i looked at sam pink’s blog to see if he came to baltimore without jordan, saw no information about that, typed ‘yo is you in baltimore’ in a comment box, deleted, thought ‘no just email it,’ then ‘no, maybe…no…since you’ve already debated what to do it will take you forever to type in a way you don’t hate, plus you smell strongly like all the things that smell on you, plus you were afraid to buy food last night because it would’ve meant talking to another person, so maybe you are not exactly DJ funbags right now,’ then thought ‘if i type any of this on the liveblog it’s going to seem indirect or manipulative, but i’m not aware of wanting to manipulate anything. this would be indirect of me to include if contacting him was my goal, but i gave up on that temporarily, and talked about giving it up, so i’m not being indirect.’