Back Grime
Chapters (69)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. THE MILLENNIUM
  3. DON
  4. HANNAH
  5. KAREN
  6. DON’S MOTHER
  7. PETER
  8. THE MOTHER
  9. DR. BROWN
  10. HANNAH’S FATHER
  11. SERGEJ
  12. MOTHER
  13. THE RUSSIAN
  14. THOME
  15. THE RED DEER
  16. THOME’S FATHER
  17. WALTER
  18. KAREN’S BIG BROTHER
  19. PATUK
  20. OLD WOMAN
  21. POLICEWOMAN
  22. BEFORE THE INTERMISSION
  23. INTERMISSION
  24. HUMANITY
  25. SIR ERNEST (EARL)
  26. COMMUNICATIONS CONSULTANT
  27. PROGRAMMER
  28. MA WEI
  29. CARL
  30. THE FRIENDS (BEN, KEMAL, PAVEL, MAGGY, RACHEL)
  31. BODYCAM MAN
  32. MAGGY
  33. MR. M.
  34. ROGER
  35. THE AVERAGE ENGLISHMAN
  36. THE LAB DIRECTOR
  37. HONEST MAN
  38. JOB NOMADS
  39. COURIER
  40. BOXER
  41. ATTACKERS
  42. THE EIGHT-YEAR-OLD PROSTITUTE
  43. KEVIN
  44. SWEATING MAN
  45. BERTA AND HENRY’S
  46. RACHEL
  47. YOUNG MEN
  48. ARTHUR
  49. STUDENT
  50. ROB
  51. A WOMAN
  52. PHILOSOPHER
  53. THE MATTRESS SELLER
  54. ABDULLAH B.
  55. THE PRO-LIFERS
  56. PROFESSOR DR. KUHN
  57. JON
  58. PROFESSOR
  59. MIDDLE-AGED TEACHER
  60. WOMAN WITH THE THINNING HAIR
  61. BANKER
  62. THE CHILD
  63. THE NEW PRIME MINISTER
  64. MADAME CECILIE
  65. THE JOURNALIST
  66. THE WORLD
  67. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  68. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  69. Newsletter Sign-up

There is a problem.

With, how to put it exactly,

Blacks. White programmers still haven’t developed a properly functioning biometric marker for Black faces. They’re just too—dark.

But first the noodles.

Ten more minutes. Another ten minutes of staring into the pot of water. “Come on, you maggots, come on in,” calls Hannah, and the others tiredly come to the so-called kitchen table. “Imagine we’re in a romance film and this is the second date, and here comes the scene in the movie where the man, in an effort to create intimacy, tells a story about his childhood, like: ‘Back then I was always with my grandfather at the seaside, and he showed me how to skip stones.’ And the woman takes his hand because she is touched by his manly vulnerability.

“I have no idea whether I have any grandparents,” says Hannah. Taking another scoop of noodles because she’s never full. Nobody here is full, they eat and eat, but the hunger remains, their bodies grow by the hour. The mind and feelings stay hungry. That’s it now. Thinks Hannah. Nobody is going to come and make her life into something extraordinary. And the realization that she must do it all herself is so unpleasant that Hannah has to brace herself on the stove. She looks at her hands bracing. The fingers like spider’s legs. The truth that Hannah is incompetent and untalented and that she must live with this uninteresting person for an eternity does nothing to improve her mood. They’ve been here in the city for several months now and none of the grand visions have come to fruition. They’ve constructed lodgings for themselves as if they were putting up a tree house in the garden, though none of the children ever had a tree house. None of them thinks of apple trees, grandmothers, there are no childhood memories that involve the smell of cake. A place that is safe, where you don’t have worry about anything because there’s always someone there to protect you.

It goes on.

Thinks

PETER

As he stares utterly emotionless at the private road, until all he can see blurs together into an indistinct slurry of white and green. He wonders if it’s possible to privatize the air. Earlier in life, Peter—it is rather sweet when such a very young person thinks “earlier in life”—anyway, earlier he’d not had anything against people. They just didn’t matter to him. They could live, who cared. In the meantime, however, animosity had developed in Peter toward most. They’re just so unbelievably stupid.