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Chapters (82)
  1. AUTHOR’S NOTE
  2. 1. Claire
  3. CLAIRE
  4. 2. Keller
  5. KELLER
  6. 3. Claire
  7. CLAIRE
  8. 4. Claire
  9. CLAIRE
  10. 5. Claire
  11. CLAIRE
  12. 6. Keller
  13. KELLER
  14. 7. Claire
  15. CLAIRE
  16. 8. Claire
  17. CLAIRE
  18. 9. Keller
  19. KELLER
  20. 10. Claire
  21. CLAIRE
  22. 11. Claire
  23. CLAIRE
  24. 12. Claire
  25. CLAIRE
  26. 13. Claire
  27. CLAIRE
  28. 14. Claire
  29. CLAIRE
  30. 15. Claire
  31. CLAIRE
  32. 16. Claire
  33. CLAIRE
  34. 17. Claire
  35. CLAIRE
  36. 18. Claire
  37. CLAIRE
  38. 19. Keller
  39. KELLER
  40. 20. Claire
  41. CLAIRE
  42. 21. Claire
  43. CLAIRE
  44. 22. Claire
  45. CLAIRE
  46. 23. Keller
  47. KELLER
  48. 24. Claire
  49. CLAIRE
  50. 25. Claire
  51. CLAIRE
  52. 26. Claire
  53. CLAIRE
  54. 27. Claire
  55. CLAIRE
  56. 28. Claire
  57. CLAIRE
  58. 29. Claire
  59. CLAIRE
  60. 30. Claire
  61. CLAIRE
  62. 31. Claire
  63. CLAIRE
  64. 32. Keller
  65. KELLER
  66. 33. Claire
  67. CLAIRE
  68. 34. Claire
  69. CLAIRE
  70. 35. Claire
  71. CLAIRE
  72. 36. Keller
  73. KELLER
  74. 37. Claire
  75. CLAIRE
  76. 38. Claire
  77. CLAIRE
  78. 39. Keller
  79. KELLER
  80. EPILOGUE
  81. KELLER
  82. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“I mean, as much as Lisa and Dad would. Not all the time—she had nannies, too. But if she needed to be changed when she was with me, of course I did it.”

Never mind. I know nothing about this guy. “Talk like that and you could sell me on four kids,” I joke.

“Deal.”

I clear my throat. “I need to call my grandmother. I haven’t spoken to her since the weekend and she’s freaking out a bit. Would I disturb you if I did it here?”

“Go ahead.” He returns to his textbook.

I only have fifteen minutes left until dinner, which is perfect. I can tell her I have to go if she keeps nagging.

I call, and she answers almost immediately. “Finally!”

I ignore the jab, refusing to let her corner me into repeating the justifications I already texted her. “Hi, Grandma, how are you?”

“I’d be better if I knew you were alive and well, young lady. This is not how I raised you. You could have been kidnapped and killed! Someone could just be texting in your place.”

Four days. We talked four days ago.

“Sorry you worried. Maybe we could have a secret word to share so you know it’s me. Like porcupine.”

“I would rather you answer your phone.”

“Well, it’s not always possible, between my classes, social engagements, and the fact that you’re three hours ahead,” I reply reasonably. “But tell me about the surgery! It’s so exciting. Your doctor recommended it like, what, two years ago?”

As I speak, I glance to the man responsible for my grandmother’s luck. I don’t think I’ve thanked him for that properly yet. Or I tried, but he didn’t let me.

No thanks necessary. You paid for that, with interest, if I recall.

He’s looking at me over the edge of his book.

My grandmother drones on about the grant, everything it entails—a private room, weekly appointments with a professional for months after—and repeats her belief: “This proves good things come to good people, my darling. God blessed me.”

I manage not to laugh to her face.

“How about you, sweetheart?” she finally asks.

I glance at the screen. “Dinner starts in like, three minutes—with my housemates. I have to go soon. But I’m good. I just got a job—babysitting a lovely girl.”

I decide not to tell her it comes with a car. It’s not normal, and she’ll question that.

“And I’ll come next Friday, grandma.”

“Oh, I will be out of it for most of the day, you know. But if you insist. Let’s talk about your boyfriend, young lady. He told me you haven’t been in touch with him either. Sweetheart, just because you’re in another state doesn’t mean you should neglect the people who love you like that. It’s not fair to him.”