Emily didn’t say a word. She stood in the doorway listening to her husband sing to a little boy who was sedated, who was intubated, whose life he was trying to save. Emily closed her eyes and thought of Malcolm’s siblings, the ones she’d spoken to; they’d felt so helpless, so angry. Ezra’s voice was clear and perfectly on pitch, fine-tuned in college a cappella groups and playroom jam sessions with his patients. He hardly ever sang at home, but Emily wished he would. She could listen to him sing forever. Then his voice caught, and Emily opened her eyes. He was crying—and her heart felt so full that she wasn’t sure she’d ever love him more than she did in that moment.

She took up the end of the song, finishing it for him, softly singing the lines about waiting for the moment to arise. That imagery always spoke to her the most.

Ezra looked at her in the doorway; she could see the tears in his eyes. And she realized. “Malcolm’s the patient you didn’t want to talk about earlier.”

Ezra nodded and wiped his eyes. “He is. There’s nothing left that I can do.”

Emily pulled a chair up next to him and sat down, wrapping one arm around his back, steeling herself for him, making herself his anchor. “You don’t need me to tell you that science can’t always cure everyone. That all you can ever do is your best, but sometimes it won’t be enough.”

“I know,” Ezra said, leaning his head against her. “That’s why Einstein believed in God.”

“That’s right,” she said. “That’s why Einstein believed in God.”

“It still feels like a failure,” he whispered.

“Oh, Ez,” Emily said, pulling herself close to him, wrapping her arm around him tighter.

Ezra looked back at Malcolm. “I said I’d stay until his dad came back—he went to get Malcolm’s mom from the station. Her train just got in.”

“We can stay as long as you want,” Emily said.

Ezra nodded.

After a moment of silence, Emily began singing quietly, fingering the piano chords on the chair handle for “Let It Be.” When she got to the part about broken-hearted people living in the world agreeing, Ezra joined her just as quietly giving the song’s answer. Let it be. Let it be.

And the two of them sang Beatles songs to Malcolm until his parents returned to sit vigil.

iv

After our impromptu guitar lesson, I told your father that I could play piano. But that I hadn’t touched a keyboard in three years—since my mom died. We were drinking beer in his dorm room, relaxing together on his bed.

“So there’s music in your soul,” he said.