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Chapters (108)
  1. Cover
  2. ALSO BY JILL SANTOPOLO
  3. Dedication
  4. i
  5. 1
  6. 2
  7. ii
  8. 3
  9. iii
  10. 4
  11. 5
  12. iv
  13. 6
  14. 7
  15. v
  16. 8
  17. vi
  18. 9
  19. vii
  20. 10
  21. 11
  22. viii
  23. 12
  24. ix
  25. 13
  26. x
  27. 14
  28. xi
  29. 15
  30. xii
  31. 16
  32. xiii
  33. 17
  34. xiv
  35. xv
  36. 18
  37. xvi
  38. 19
  39. xvii
  40. 20
  41. 21
  42. xviii
  43. 22
  44. 23
  45. xix
  46. 24
  47. xx
  48. 25
  49. xxi
  50. 26
  51. 27
  52. xxii
  53. 28
  54. 29
  55. 30
  56. xxiii
  57. 31
  58. 32
  59. 33
  60. xxiv
  61. 34
  62. xxv
  63. 35
  64. xxvi
  65. 36
  66. xxvii
  67. 37
  68. 38
  69. xxviii
  70. 39
  71. xxix
  72. 40
  73. xxx
  74. 41
  75. xxxi
  76. 42
  77. 43
  78. 44
  79. xxxii
  80. 45
  81. 46
  82. 47
  83. 48
  84. 49
  85. 50
  86. 51
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  88. 53
  89. 54
  90. 55
  91. 56
  92. 57
  93. 58
  94. 59
  95. 60
  96. 61
  97. 62
  98. 63
  99. 64
  100. 65
  101. 66
  102. 67
  103. 68
  104. 69
  105. xxxiii
  106. acknowledgments
  107. about the author
  108. What’s next onyour reading list?

She wiped her fingers on a paper napkin and took his phone, pressing play on the video. And she saw herself. She saw herself as he saw her. She looked smaller than she imagined, on that stage, playing the bar’s upright piano. Her hair shone copper in the spotlight, where it glinted off the peaks of her braid. Then she started to play, her body rocking with the music, her hands strong against the keys. The music sounded bold, powerful. And then she started to sing. And her own voice almost brought tears to her eyes. She was mournful, passionate, hopeful. Rob was right. She hadn’t known, hadn’t realized.

She looked up and felt a tear slide down her cheek. She wiped it away with the back of her hand. “I guess I’m not so bad,” she said.

“Queenie,” he answered. “You’re transcendent.”

Before Emily realized what he was doing, he’d pushed his paper plate across the table and slid in next to her in the booth. She moved over to make room, but they were still only millimeters apart.

“We could be huge,” he said. “The Sonny and Cher of our generation. The Johnny and June Carter Cash.”

She smiled, remembering those words from years before. “Could we still?” she asked.

“You’re only thirty-three,” he said. “After we broke up, I never thought I’d write a song that hit the Billboard charts, but here we are. Anything’s possible, Queenie.”

Emily stopped to consider it, really consider it. What would that be like? Leaving her life in New York, her patients? Living apart from Ezra? Traveling the country, maybe the world, playing with Rob? Being recognized at pizza joints? She’d be living out the dream they’d had when she was twenty. But not the dream she and Ezra shared. The one they’d been building these past years.

Rob was watching her think. “You don’t have to answer now,” he said. “It’s a big decision. But think about it. They’re sending me to Mexico next. Then Miami. Top hotels, everything comped . . . if you were there, too, I bet we could book even bigger venues, reach even more fans.”

“I’ll think about it,” she said, but she wasn’t sure if she meant it.

Rob slipped his arm around her shoulders, and Emily let herself lean against him, marveling, as she always did, at the analgesic property of human touch. She felt calmer, less anxious, more hopeful. New paths had suddenly opened up for her, paths she’d long ago thought had been blocked off and closed down. She didn’t know if she wanted to travel down them, but knowing that they were there felt good somehow. Like the world was more open than she’d thought it was.

“I’ve been listening to Beethoven’s Fifth Symphony recently,” Rob said.