Chapters (79)
- COVER
- About the Author
- Also by Jo Thomas
- DEDICATION
- ONE
- TWO
- THREE
- FOUR
- FIVE
- SIX
- SEVEN
- EIGHT
- NINE
- TEN
- ELEVEN
- TWELVE
- THIRTEEN
- FOURTEEN
- FIFTEEN
- SIXTEEN
- SEVENTEEN
- EIGHTEEN
- NINETEEN
- TWENTY
- TWENTY-ONE
- TWENTY-TWO
- TWENTY-THREE
- TWENTY-FOUR
- TWENTY-FIVE
- TWENTY-SIX
- TWENTY-SEVEN
- TWENTY-EIGHT
- TWENTY-NINE
- THIRTY
- THIRTY-ONE
- THIRTY-TWO
- THIRTY-THREE
- THIRTY-FOUR
- THIRTY-FIVE
- THIRTY-SIX
- THIRTY-SEVEN
- THIRTY-EIGHT
- THIRTY-NINE
- FORTY
- FORTY-ONE
- FORTY-TWO
- FORTY-THREE
- FORTY-FOUR
- FORTY-FIVE
- FORTY-SIX
- FORTY-SEVEN
- FORTY-EIGHT
- FORTY-NINE
- FIFTY
- FIFTY-ONE
- FIFTY-TWO
- FIFTY-THREE
- FIFTY-FOUR
- FIFTY-FIVE
- FIFTY-SIX
- FIFTY-SEVEN
- FIFTY-EIGHT
- FIFTY-NINE
- SIXTY
- SIXTY-ONE
- SIXTY-TWO
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- RECIPES
- Lavender shortbread
- Apricot jam sponge cake
- Lavender lamb
- READ MORE
- Prologue
- ONE
- TWO
- THREE
- FOUR
- THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
I find my seat, put my case into the overhead locker and wait for the man next to me to let me in. ‘Thank you,’ I say, and sit down. He rests his leg against mine. I look down at it, then back at him sternly. He adjusts his sitting position and moves his leg. I take a deep breath and pull out my phone to check my messages. I made it. Got the report in and made the plane. I smile to myself. I did it.
All I have to do is sit back and wait. I’ve done everything I can to get this promotion. And when I do, everything will change. I pull up a picture on my phone of the apartment for which I’ve put in an offer and smile. A home of my own. Finally. This is where I belong. A kitchen in which I can enjoy cooking, relaxing and spending time with friends and family. I look at the clean lines of the brand-new building. Mostly I look at the kitchen, and the dining area. The coffee machine, and the dinner parties I’ll hold there …
‘Phones turned off, please,’ says the attendant, sharply. I disconnect mine and slide it into my bag.
I lay my head against the headrest, shut my eyes and make a list of people to invite to my first dinner party. Mum, of course, and my stepdad. My brother and his family, although he’s so busy running his own business, in swimming-pool tiling, that I barely see him these days. Who else? My boss and his wife? Not Jasper. Well, maybe Jasper. I could throw a housewarming party, look up some old friends from college I’ve lost touch with.
The plane accelerates down the runway, and all I can think about is the kitchen in the new flat, my cookbooks lined up, and having the time to use them. I’m determined to make time for myself when I get this promotion, instead of doing the partners’ work for them as well as my own. Everything will change and I’ll make sure it does.
As we take off, my thoughts turn to Italy and my grandparents’ kitchen. Breathe, I think, smiling …
ONE
The scent of the tangy tomato sauce hits my nostrils, head and heart before I even taste it. My nostrils tingle, my head practically pops with joy, and my heart is so full it feels like it might explode.
I don’t rush it. I take a moment to savour the joy it brings me. I breathe in deeply, the rich, garlicky sauce, the aroma of peppery olive oil, shut my eyes and let my world recentre itself. I open my eyes and twist tagliatelle, smothered in the familiar sauce, onto my fork. I put it into my mouth, and it’s like coming home to the comfort of the hug that awaits me every year.
‘You look like you never eat!’