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Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prelude
  5. George
  6. Dan
  7. Lizzie
  8. George
  9. Dan
  10. Lizzie
  11. George
  12. Dan
  13. Lizzie
  14. George
  15. Dan
  16. Lizzie
  17. George
  18. Dan
  19. Lizzie
  20. George
  21. Dan
  22. Lizzie
  23. George
  24. Dan
  25. Lizzie
  26. George
  27. Dan
  28. Lizzie
  29. George
  30. Dan
  31. Lizzie
  32. George
  33. Dan
  34. George
  35. Dan
  36. Lizzie
  37. George
  38. Dan
  39. Lizzie
  40. George
  41. Dan
  42. Lizzie
  43. Dan
  44. George
  45. Dan
  46. Lizzie
  47. Dan
  48. Lizzie
  49. George
  50. Lizzie
  51. George
  52. Dan
  53. Lizzie
  54. George
  55. Dan
  56. Lizzie
  57. George
  58. Dan
  59. Lizzie
  60. George
  61. Dan
  62. Lizzie
  63. George
  64. Dan
  65. Beth
  66. Postscript
  67. Acknowledgements
  68. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

Atticus rolls his eyes at him and says, ‘Something lost, inside yourself. That which you seek, inside you will find.’

From Socrates to Star Wars, Dan thinks. Whatever Atticus is or isn’t, he’s definitely not stupid. ‘Return of the Jedi,’ Dan says in response. ‘I take it you like Star Wars?’

‘Not as much as you, obviously,’ Atticus replies, waggling his toes.

And that is how the session continues. Dan and Atticus playing ping-pong. Dan asks him if he is happy and Atticus tells him, ‘Most folks are happy so long as they make up their minds to be.’ Dan asks him if work is stressful, and Atticus says, ‘My father is an art dealer,’ as if no more explanation is required. Dan doesn’t know why his father being an art dealer should have anything to do with Atticus’s work but feels probing would make him look ignorant and judgemental.

Dan’s nan wouldn’t like the self-assured look on Atticus’s face, or those shoes. She’d tut loudly and say, ‘He thinks he’s something.’ For some absurd reason, the thought of his nan meeting Atticus makes Dan want to smile.

His nan understood him in a way his parents and sister never did. When he was with her, everything felt a little bit safer. He thinks of her going out in her slippers – ‘Give the neighbours something to talk about, eh? Me going senile.’

His mouth twitches. Dan turns it into a cough, drums his fingers three times on his clipboard, then tells himself to take control. ‘Are you an artist?’ he asks.

It comes out like a chat-up line, and Atticus laughs and says, ‘I’m permanently dissatisfied. That’s probably the same thing.’

Atticus has a great laugh. Dan tells himself not to be distracted by an open mouth and a row of white pearly teeth. He swallows a sigh, girds his loins, and says, ‘What made you book the appointment to come here? Did something specific happen?’

Atticus looks at him for a long moment, then says, ‘I’d been working on a gallery opening for a long time. It ended and I felt … bereft.’

‘Bereft as in missing something or someone?’

‘Yes,’ Atticus says, not answering the question.

‘Do you still feel that way?’

Something flashes across Atticus’s face then, but it’s gone too quickly for Dan to decipher it. ‘Not right now, no.’