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Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prelude
  5. George
  6. Dan
  7. Lizzie
  8. George
  9. Dan
  10. Lizzie
  11. George
  12. Dan
  13. Lizzie
  14. George
  15. Dan
  16. Lizzie
  17. George
  18. Dan
  19. Lizzie
  20. George
  21. Dan
  22. Lizzie
  23. George
  24. Dan
  25. Lizzie
  26. George
  27. Dan
  28. Lizzie
  29. George
  30. Dan
  31. Lizzie
  32. George
  33. Dan
  34. George
  35. Dan
  36. Lizzie
  37. George
  38. Dan
  39. Lizzie
  40. George
  41. Dan
  42. Lizzie
  43. Dan
  44. George
  45. Dan
  46. Lizzie
  47. Dan
  48. Lizzie
  49. George
  50. Lizzie
  51. George
  52. Dan
  53. Lizzie
  54. George
  55. Dan
  56. Lizzie
  57. George
  58. Dan
  59. Lizzie
  60. George
  61. Dan
  62. Lizzie
  63. George
  64. Dan
  65. Beth
  66. Postscript
  67. Acknowledgements
  68. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

After a moment, Lizzie feels a hand on her shoulder and turns to see Tess, who is so happy that Lizzie is sharing, opening up, she’s actually twitching with joy. Around her, the women start to hum, like energy-saving light bulbs. Not conversation, more like whales communicating across the sea, filling the room with pulses and gentle clicks. Orcas are as capable of feeling loss as humans. Some have been known to carry their dead calves on their snouts for days. They are Lizzie’s favourite creatures.

She says nothing, but everything has changed, and when she goes up to bed later that night, after staying behind to tidy up, she finds all the bracelets she helped the women make lying on her bed with tags that say, ‘For you, Lizzie’. They are all blue, for protection. They were listening to her after all.

George

(You are dead to me)

LETTER IN HAND, GEORGE marches out of the shed to find Betty, who’s singing ‘If I’d Known You Were Coming, I’d’ve Baked a Cake’ in the kitchen as she drops glacé cherries into scone mixture. She turns when she hears him approach.

‘Ah, there you are. I was—’ But whatever she was going to say is forgotten when he thrusts the letter into her chest.

‘Ah, about that …’ She wipes her hands on her pinny nervously.

‘About what, Betty?’ George is going to make her say it. He wants to hear her tell him she’s a liar.

‘Christ wept, George, how could I tell you? I didn’t even know you. I couldn’t just go to your house and tell you your wife was dying.’ Betty’s voice squeaks in panic, turkey neck flapping.

‘Yes. Yes, you fucking could have.’

‘You read the letter. She didn’t want me to. She didn’t want you to know.’

‘It wasn’t for her – or you – to decide to keep it from me. As if I’m a child, or deranged!’ George is on fire with rage. It’s burning him up.

‘George, she was doing what she thought best.’ Betty smooths out the letter, as if she’s about to start reading from it, but George can’t ever hear those words again. Never.

He snatches it back. ‘Did she pay you to go to my house and look after me?’

‘What?’ Betty looks horrified.

‘Did she pay you? Is that why you won’t take my money? Had you already had a lump sum off her, or just the sewing-machine? Where is it? Did you sell it?’

‘Christ on a bike! No, she didn’t pay me and I don’t want your money. You know that. I spend time with you because I want to, you thickwit.’