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Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prelude
  5. George
  6. Dan
  7. Lizzie
  8. George
  9. Dan
  10. Lizzie
  11. George
  12. Dan
  13. Lizzie
  14. George
  15. Dan
  16. Lizzie
  17. George
  18. Dan
  19. Lizzie
  20. George
  21. Dan
  22. Lizzie
  23. George
  24. Dan
  25. Lizzie
  26. George
  27. Dan
  28. Lizzie
  29. George
  30. Dan
  31. Lizzie
  32. George
  33. Dan
  34. George
  35. Dan
  36. Lizzie
  37. George
  38. Dan
  39. Lizzie
  40. George
  41. Dan
  42. Lizzie
  43. Dan
  44. George
  45. Dan
  46. Lizzie
  47. Dan
  48. Lizzie
  49. George
  50. Lizzie
  51. George
  52. Dan
  53. Lizzie
  54. George
  55. Dan
  56. Lizzie
  57. George
  58. Dan
  59. Lizzie
  60. George
  61. Dan
  62. Lizzie
  63. George
  64. Dan
  65. Beth
  66. Postscript
  67. Acknowledgements
  68. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘Who did this to you, Lizzie?’ Luke’s voice had been quiet, but she still said nothing. ‘Was it his dad?’ Luke had nodded to the window. Outside, Lenny had taken off his boots and was wiping the mud and wet grass off them with his T-shirt. Wolfie sat next to him, giving him the odd lick here and there.

Lizzie couldn’t find her voice and Luke had taken her silence as a confession.

‘Are you safe,’ Luke had asked her gently, ‘when you go home?’

‘We ran away. We live in a shelter. Some of the cuts are just slow to heal,’ Lizzie had said into his chest, into the warmth of another body, after such a long time of being the strong one. She’d held Lenny like this so many times. How wonderful it felt to be the one being comforted, being held, just this once. Just for a little while.

Now, back at the shelter, alone in the bathroom, she keeps on splashing her face with water, but it’s incapable of washing anything away. When the door creaks she assumes it’s Lenny, come to find her, missing the shape of her next to him in the bed. ‘Night, Lenny,’ she says each night, as he is pulled into slumber, away from her. ‘I’ll meet you in my dreams.’ It never happens, though. She dreams of things that have already happened and – thankfully – Lenny is never there.

Her visitor is not her son. It’s a wet nose, followed by two pointy ears. Maud walks in slowly, her paws making a clicking noise. She stops near Lizzie’s ankle and gives it a lick. Her tongue is warm and wet, and Lizzie isn’t sure she likes it, but Maud won’t stop.

‘Why won’t you leave me alone?’ she whispers to Maud, but Maud carries on licking the patches of skin she can find, and it’s stupid but Lizzie almost feels like she’s being cleansed somehow. She slides to the floor and tips her head back against the wall, letting Maud complete her expurgation.

George

(How could you do this to me?)

GEORGE IS AT BETTY’S house. She’s finally decided to do some work on her garden and has asked George to help. Nothing flash or too tricky to manage. Just pots of bright colour here and there – she points to the exact spots. She doesn’t have time for anything more, she tells George, almost apologetically, as if he’s desperate to do it.

He’s in the little shed in the garden, marvelling at how neatly her husband’s tools are lined up, how clean they look. He’s searching for a screwdriver to make holes in a hanging basket, digging through the old dresser drawer, when he finds it.