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Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prelude
  5. George
  6. Dan
  7. Lizzie
  8. George
  9. Dan
  10. Lizzie
  11. George
  12. Dan
  13. Lizzie
  14. George
  15. Dan
  16. Lizzie
  17. George
  18. Dan
  19. Lizzie
  20. George
  21. Dan
  22. Lizzie
  23. George
  24. Dan
  25. Lizzie
  26. George
  27. Dan
  28. Lizzie
  29. George
  30. Dan
  31. Lizzie
  32. George
  33. Dan
  34. George
  35. Dan
  36. Lizzie
  37. George
  38. Dan
  39. Lizzie
  40. George
  41. Dan
  42. Lizzie
  43. Dan
  44. George
  45. Dan
  46. Lizzie
  47. Dan
  48. Lizzie
  49. George
  50. Lizzie
  51. George
  52. Dan
  53. Lizzie
  54. George
  55. Dan
  56. Lizzie
  57. George
  58. Dan
  59. Lizzie
  60. George
  61. Dan
  62. Lizzie
  63. George
  64. Dan
  65. Beth
  66. Postscript
  67. Acknowledgements
  68. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

Suddenly the old man lunges at him. ‘That’s hers. I know it is. How fucking dare you wear it?’

He starts to tug at Dan’s Parisian scarf, and it hurts, and he feels like he’s being choked and then Atticus is there too, tugging as well, telling the old man to get off and let go. Dan is being pulled and pushed and called gay, and he thinks he might be having a panic attack but isn’t sure. He spins and twirls and wrenches himself free, and, before the old man or Atticus can get to him, is out of the door and running towards home.

Fitz, who’s been watching from under his bonnet, bursts out of the shop to join him. The bonnet slides off his head and lands in a puddle and he seems to consider going back for it, but he’s never seen Dan run like that, not even when he’s racing Luke, and he decides that nothing else matters.

When the bell rings Dan ignores it. The door opens a moment later and he hears footsteps on the stairs. Fitz lifts his head and wags his tail.

‘Daniel?’

Atticus smells like an evergreen tree in a cold field but his hands are warm when they find Dan’s face, under the covers, where he is hiding from the world. Dan wants to push him away, make him leave, make him no longer exist, but his body is a filthy traitor. It wants Atticus to crawl under the covers with him. Fag. Fag. Fag.

‘It doesn’t matter, what that old man said.’

‘It matters to me.’ Dan talks to his toes, counts the hairs.

‘Why? It’s the twenty-first century. We live in Brighton. Section Twenty-eight is no longer applicable.’

‘I know,’ Dan says weakly.

‘Do you? Do you really know how we used to be treated? How we used to be beaten. Forced to live as recluses. Thatcher lumped us in with the paedophiles. Banned us from having a voice. Made us criminals.’

The words make Dan jump.

‘People have died for being gay, Daniel. People have died protesting for our freedom, for us to be accepted. Respected. Read about our history. It’s your history too, Dan. What we did together, what we do, in your bed, on your sofa, used to be illegal.’

Dan tries to let his words sink in.

‘But it isn’t any more. I refuse to hide, to pretend, to deny for a single second, Daniel. And in honour of all the people who couldn’t, I will be as gay as the day is long. I am not ashamed of my sexuality. I am not ashamed of my feelings for you.’

He takes Dan by the shoulders. ‘Daniel, my sun, I want to be your boyfriend.’

A firework goes off inside Dan. He feels it explode into a million sparkling stars fizzing in his veins. ‘I want that too.’