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Chapters (68)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Prelude
  5. George
  6. Dan
  7. Lizzie
  8. George
  9. Dan
  10. Lizzie
  11. George
  12. Dan
  13. Lizzie
  14. George
  15. Dan
  16. Lizzie
  17. George
  18. Dan
  19. Lizzie
  20. George
  21. Dan
  22. Lizzie
  23. George
  24. Dan
  25. Lizzie
  26. George
  27. Dan
  28. Lizzie
  29. George
  30. Dan
  31. Lizzie
  32. George
  33. Dan
  34. George
  35. Dan
  36. Lizzie
  37. George
  38. Dan
  39. Lizzie
  40. George
  41. Dan
  42. Lizzie
  43. Dan
  44. George
  45. Dan
  46. Lizzie
  47. Dan
  48. Lizzie
  49. George
  50. Lizzie
  51. George
  52. Dan
  53. Lizzie
  54. George
  55. Dan
  56. Lizzie
  57. George
  58. Dan
  59. Lizzie
  60. George
  61. Dan
  62. Lizzie
  63. George
  64. Dan
  65. Beth
  66. Postscript
  67. Acknowledgements
  68. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

George’s anger fuels him all the way home, to the pantry for his beer and then to his armchair. When the cricket is over, and he’s finally managed to piss out the three bottles he’s drunk on a hungry stomach, he goes to the door of the spare room. It takes him a minute to open it – he’s all fingers and thumbs, and drunk enough to cling to the dream that Ellen might be in there somewhere. What was that fucking awful poem from the funeral? ‘Death is nothing at all. I am merely in the next room.’

Another of her lies. Ellen is not in the room, and neither are her possessions. Everything has gone. Every item of clothing, every pair of shoes. All the perfumes and powders and pots from the dressing-table. The hangers in the wardrobe. Her brown knitting bag and her parrot umbrella. The set of Basildon Bond writing paper that George now knows she bought to write to him and others from beyond the grave, playing them like chess pieces against one another. Her dressing-gown with the missing belt is missing. The faded blue slippers. Her hairbrush and rollers, that antique mirror with the brass handle that used to belong to her mother. The scarves she wore over her head on windy days and hairdresser days. Her record collection: Elvis Presley, Fats Domino and old swing classics. The china dogs, and the fake roses in a chipped vase that George stole from the hotel they stayed at on their first holiday together. The jar of buttons. Even the scented drawer liners had been taken, along with her socks and pants, and bras and stockings.

George tells himself he’s imagining things. Tells himself it’s the beer. Tells himself to go to bed, and in the morning everything will be normal again. He backs out of the room, staggers down the hall, then passes out on his bed with his shoes on. Poppy has to settle for sleeping on the floor, occasionally licking at the flaky patch of skin above his sock and below his trouser leg.

George sleeps for ten hours, and wakes confused and dehydrated. After a quick check that he hasn’t wet the bed (it happens), he sits up slowly and groans as the room tilts and spins. Poppy barks and his brain pulses. He’d be sick, if only he had something inside him. An image of scones pops into his head again, cherries glowing like rubies. George remembers the rest and sees red.