Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

Lena already knew what Avraham had learned. His family in Berlin and Miriam’s family in Cologne had all perished. Miriam’s father, Professor Jacobs, had died as well. Lena had mourned with them these past weeks, still grieving the loss of her own father. The pain never went away entirely, but time had made it easier to carry, and the waves of grief came less often.

“Do you have a place to live in Leiden?” Ans asked. “I’m sure Eloise would let you stay with us. She’ll be so excited to see you and Elisheva.”

“We’re eager to see her too,” Avi said. “I met Mrs. Spielman’s grandson when I was in Amsterdam —Mrs. Spielman was our landlady in Leiden. He was searching the records too and learned that his grandmother was gone. But he knew who Miriam and I were, and he offered to let us live in our old apartment as caretakers. He plans to list the other apartment for rent.”

“I wonder if Noah felt this way after the flood,” Ans said. “There’s so much destruction everywhere and so much rebuilding to do as we start all over again. But the world is still a beautiful place.”

“And we have much to be thankful for,” Miriam added. “I realize now that when we were in hiding, we were never hidden from God.”

“Even so,” Lena said, “it must be very difficult for you and Avi to begin again. Pieter and I still have our home and our farm. I admire your courage to move forward after losing everything.”

“We don’t understand why God allowed this to happen to our people,” Avi said. “But we won’t turn away from Him in our grief and disappointment. We’ll bring our questions to Him. Miriam’s father once told me that his favorite students were the ones who weren’t afraid to ask questions. He thought God must feel the same way. I believe it will draw us closer to Him as we wait for His answers.”

“One of my questions,” Miriam said softly, “is why we were spared when so many, many others weren’t.”

“Only God knows,” Avi said. “But Miriam and I and Elisheva owe a huge debt to all of you. And to so many other courageous people who risked their lives for us. I don’t know how we will ever repay you.”

“The best way to repay us,” Pieter said, “is to do the same thing —show kindness and generosity to others.”

“And by refusing to hate,” Lena added. “I hope none of us ever forgets that hatred and greed were how this terrible war began.”