Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

He took a moment to reply as if searching for a place to begin, running his hand over his reddish-blond hair, stroking his trim goatee. “You wouldn’t know it from meeting Eloise, but she is a very fragile woman who struggles, from time to time, with melancholia.” He spoke as if it pained him to disparage her. “You were recommended to me as a bright, cheerful young lady, who I hope will be good medicine for her. Have you ever known someone with melancholia?”

“No, I’m sorry.” Ans wondered if the truth would cost her the job.

“Eloise goes for days, weeks, even months at a time when all is well, and no one would ever guess that anything was wrong. But then something triggers her sadness, and she falls into a pit that she can’t easily climb out of. It isn’t your task to keep her happy but to walk beside her in the darkness and make sure that she doesn’t . . .” He looked down at his desk for a long moment before looking up again. “That she doesn’t harm herself.” His words fell as soft as snowflakes. “Does that possibility frighten you, Miss De Vries?”

“To be perfectly honest, yes. But I took care of my grandmother during the final months of her life, and that was often difficult too.” Ans paused, then decided to take a chance. “May I ask why your wife might choose to harm herself?”

“Yes, of course. Her background is important to know.” He took a deep breath, then continued. “Eloise grew up in Belgium. She was a young woman like you when the surrounding nations decided to wage a war in the middle of her country. She lost her home and her parents to the violence and then her only brother, who was very dear to her. He was gassed and suffered horribly before he died. I’m not sure one ever recovers from such tragic losses, but Eloise has spent her lifetime trying. Valiantly.”

Ans had read accounts in school of the Great War in neighboring Belgium —the hellish trench warfare, the poison gas attacks, the endless devastation. “I’m so sorry, Professor. I can’t imagine suffering through such a terrible war. What can I do to help her?”

“There are certain events . . . sounds . . . even smells that distract her mind from the present and hurl her into the past. Into the pit. In time, you will learn what some of those trip wires are. You must become her lifeline, her tether, linking her to the present. You serve as a reminder of what is real and what isn’t. I need you to be a companion and a friend without giving the impression that you are her jailer.”

“I see.” A niggle of fear burrowed into her stomach. The job would be challenging, but hadn’t she wanted something different?