Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

Frits Woltheim was in his late twenties, and like the other two young men, Aart and Jan, he was what physicians called a Mongoloid. Frits yelled whenever he was frustrated or unhappy and was the source of most of the shouting Miriam had heard. Miriam shared a small bedroom with an elderly woman named Miep, who suffered from dementia and sat in a chair, quietly mumbling nonsense all day. Two more women shared another bedroom: Rietje, who was Miriam’s age but had the mental abilities of a small child, and Cornelia, who talked to people only she could see and sometimes suffered from paranoid delusions that made her moan and cry out.

Mealtimes were messy and chaotic but eaten together as a family, even though wartime shortages all across the country meant that the soup was watery and the oatmeal was thin. The sisters didn’t have a radio and rarely talked of the war or current events, so Miriam had no idea what was happening in the outside world. She might have been living on a secluded island in the middle of the ocean or in an imaginary world like Cornelia’s. She felt safe at Meijers House, for the most part, and did her best to avoid interacting with the daytime help. Whenever the other residents’ families visited on Sunday afternoons, Miriam would sit alone on the sun porch, imitating Miep, who was lost in the world of dementia.

The sisters had an old-fashioned windup gramophone and often played music in the evenings. Sometimes Miss Willy played the piano. The house was isolated enough from their neighbors that Miriam asked if she could play her violin without the mute after the daily household staff went home.

“That would be lovely,” Miss Hannie said. “We adore music.”

Everyone enjoyed hearing Miriam play, especially Rietje, who would sit on the floor by Miriam’s feet clapping her hands after each piece and saying, “More! Play more, Christina!”

By the time a few months had passed, Rietje had become so attached to Miriam that Miss Willy allowed her to swap bedrooms with Miep so Rietje could be close to her new friend. Miriam had tried to remain aloof from the women at the Mulders’ farm, closing herself off from close friendships, but there was something about Rietje, a high-spirited child trapped in a young woman’s body, that seeped into a tiny corner of Miriam’s heart. They took walks together around the spacious grounds, away from Frits and his friends who liked to tease. Golden-haired Rietje skipped and danced and exclaimed in childlike delight at every ant and worm and bee they encountered. Her antics often brought a rare smile to Miriam’s face.