Back Chasing Shadows
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise for Lynn Austin
  3. Also by Lynn Austin
  4. Epigraph
  5. PROLOGUE
  6. CHAPTER 1
  7. CHAPTER 2
  8. CHAPTER 3
  9. CHAPTER 4
  10. CHAPTER 5
  11. CHAPTER 6
  12. CHAPTER 7
  13. CHAPTER 8
  14. CHAPTER 9
  15. CHAPTER 10
  16. CHAPTER 11
  17. CHAPTER 12
  18. CHAPTER 13
  19. CHAPTER 14
  20. CHAPTER 15
  21. CHAPTER 16
  22. CHAPTER 17
  23. CHAPTER 18
  24. CHAPTER 19
  25. CHAPTER 20
  26. CHAPTER 21
  27. CHAPTER 22
  28. CHAPTER 23
  29. CHAPTER 24
  30. CHAPTER 25
  31. CHAPTER 26
  32. CHAPTER 27
  33. CHAPTER 28
  34. CHAPTER 29
  35. CHAPTER 30
  36. CHAPTER 31
  37. CHAPTER 32
  38. CHAPTER 33
  39. CHAPTER 34
  40. CHAPTER 35
  41. CHAPTER 36
  42. CHAPTER 37
  43. CHAPTER 38
  44. CHAPTER 39
  45. CHAPTER 40
  46. CHAPTER 41
  47. CHAPTER 42
  48. CHAPTER 43
  49. CHAPTER 44
  50. CHAPTER 45
  51. CHAPTER 46
  52. CHAPTER 47
  53. CHAPTER 48
  54. CHAPTER 49
  55. CHAPTER 50
  56. CHAPTER 51
  57. CHAPTER 52
  58. CHAPTER 53
  59. CHAPTER 54
  60. CHAPTER 55
  61. CHAPTER 56
  62. CHAPTER 57
  63. CHAPTER 58
  64. CHAPTER 59
  65. CHAPTER 60
  66. CHAPTER 61
  67. CHAPTER 62
  68. CHAPTER 63
  69. EPILOGUE
  70. CHAPTER 1
  71. A Note from the Author
  72. Acknowledgments
  73. Discussion Questions
  74. About the Author

The women seemed delighted to have someone new to talk with, and they shared their stories with Miriam. Lies and her daughters —Julie, who was sixteen, and Betsie, who was fourteen —were from Amsterdam and had gone into hiding during the roundups with the help of her husband’s Gentile business partner. Lies’s husband and son were also hiding, but she had no idea where. Alie was eighteen, also from Amsterdam, and the daughter of a rabbi. “I’m the oldest, and Abba found a hiding place for me first. I have no idea if my parents or any of my six siblings escaped the roundups. Abba has a special stamp on his papers, which is supposed to give him favored status, but . . .” Her words trailed off. All four women had been in hiding for as long as Miriam had, most of that time here on the Mulders’ farm.

Miriam told her story quickly, needing to scrape past the pain. She knew it made her sound unfeeling, but then the others had sounded brusque too as they’d spoken of their families. It was better not to feel any emotion, she’d decided, than to store up the pain until it destroyed her the way Eloise’s grief continually threatened to do.

“You must miss your husband and child,” Lies said softly. “I know how much I miss mine.”

“Yes.” Miriam couldn’t think about them. Wouldn’t think about them. The low drone of airplanes sounded in the distance, growing louder and closer until the planes rumbled heavily above the chicken coop, rattling the walls.

“We hear firefights sometimes,” Alie said. “And bombs exploding.”

“Have you heard any news of the war?” Lies asked. “Is there any chance of it ending soon so we can have our lives back?”

“I’m not sure. The people I was staying with had to turn in their radio a few months ago. The newspapers are run by the Nazis, and they always claim to be winning.” The little room grew darker as they talked and night fell. The chickens seemed to have settled down too, and except for the sound of crickets, the night grew still. Miriam wondered how she would sleep without the rumbling, rustling noises of the city. She heard someone yawn.

“I’m tired,” Lies said. “Maybe we should all turn in for the night.”

“It’s all of us or none of us,” Alie said testily. “You’ll learn that soon enough.”

“How do you see what you’re doing in the dark?” Miriam asked.

“We’re used to it,” Julie said. “We each have our own little space.”