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Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Dedication
  4. Chapter One
  5. Chapter Two
  6. Chapter Three
  7. Chapter Four
  8. Chapter Five
  9. Chapter Six
  10. Chapter Seven
  11. Chapter Eight
  12. Chapter Nine
  13. Chapter Ten
  14. Chapter Eleven
  15. Chapter Twelve
  16. Chapter Thirteen
  17. Chapter Fourteen
  18. Chapter Fifteen
  19. Chapter Sixteen
  20. Chapter Seventeen
  21. Chapter Eighteen
  22. Chapter Nineteen
  23. Chapter Twenty
  24. Chapter Twenty-One
  25. Chapter Twenty-Two
  26. Chapter Twenty-Three
  27. Chapter Twenty-Four
  28. Chapter Twenty-Five
  29. Chapter Twenty-Six
  30. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  31. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  32. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  33. Chapter Thirty
  34. Chapter Thirty-One
  35. Chapter Thirty-Two
  36. Chapter Thirty-Three
  37. Chapter Thirty-Four
  38. Chapter Thirty-Five
  39. Chapter Thirty-Six
  40. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  41. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  42. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  43. Chapter Forty
  44. Chapter Forty-One
  45. Chapter Forty-Two
  46. Chapter Forty-Three
  47. Chapter Forty-Four
  48. Chapter Forty-Five
  49. Chapter Forty-Six
  50. Chapter Forty-Seven
  51. Chapter Forty-Eight
  52. Chapter Forty-Nine
  53. Chapter Fifty
  54. Chapter Fifty-One
  55. Chapter Fifty-Two
  56. Chapter Fifty-Three
  57. Chapter Fifty-Four
  58. Chapter Fifty-Five
  59. Chapter Fifty-Six
  60. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  61. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  62. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  63. Epilogue
  64. Acknowledgements

Giles is sobbing now. ‘No, not really. It’s almost funny, how ingeniously evil it is. You know I was doing a few consultancy bits, here and there, a few years ago? They took me off my staff contract and made me a contractor? The day rate seemed too good to resist—well, it means that legally, they can give me bugger all. I’ve got savings…’

For long, long seconds, Giles cries silently. His shoulders rise, and fall, and rise again. Harri squeezes his hands as tightly as she can, and then gets up from the table and takes him in her arms.

‘Oh, Harri, I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.’

‘Shhh, love. It’s OK. It’s OK.’ It’s not OK, at all.

This bold, bright, brilliant man has been broken by a business operating system. Giles—who seemed so dazzling, bitchy, quick witted and glib when Harri met him over a decade ago—but who has also revealed himself to be tender-hearted, wise, profoundly loving. Giles, who turned up and was simply kind to her, day by day, hour by hour, when she thought her own world had ended.

‘It’s just so undignified,’ he says, extracting himself from her body, pressing a crimson cashmere-clad forearm against his temple. ‘I’m forty-nine, Harri! As we all know, that makes me about seven hundred and three, in gay years. Where will I go? What will I do? No one else is going to hire me. I’m too old, I’m not relevant anywhere.’

Harri shakes her head. ‘That’s crazy, any magazine would be lucky to have you! You’re too talented not to be snapped up. We’ll fix this, together. We’ll make it work!’

Giles sighs. ‘I feel like I lost my instincts. I should have seen this coming. I should have gone with you and Rosa, but I felt too old and tired and scared. You know, for a long time, the job was hard, but it was so much fun. I loved the jetlag, the panic, even the sodding models! Do you remember when we made the fake Hollywood sign for that shoot at Pinewood Studios, and we had to get Cara Delevingne to sit in the Y? And every year, it got a little more miserable, a little more pinched, but I was so proud. Together, on a page, we could make every fifty quid in the budget do five grand’s worth of work. And now…’