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  1. ACCEPTANCE
  2. JEFF VANDERMEER
  3. Dedication
  4. Table of Contents
  5. 000X: THE DIRECTOR, TWELFTH EXPEDITION
  6. PART I RANGE LIGHT
  7. 0001: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  8. 0002: GHOST BIRD
  9. 0003: THE DIRECTOR
  10. 0004: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  11. 0005: CONTROL
  12. 0006: THE DIRECTOR
  13. 0007: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  14. 0008: GHOST BIRD
  15. 0009: THE DIRECTOR
  16. 0010: CONTROL
  17. PART II FIXED LIGHT
  18. 01: THE BRIGHTNESS
  19. 02: THE MOANING CREATURE
  20. 03: THE ISLAND
  21. 04: THE OWL
  22. 05: THE SEEKER & SURVEILLANCE BANDITS
  23. 06: THE PASSAGE OF TIME, AND PAIN
  24. PART III OCCULTING LIGHT
  25. 0011: GHOST BIRD
  26. 0012: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  27. 0013: CONTROL
  28. 0014: THE DIRECTOR
  29. 0015: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  30. 0016: GHOST BIRD
  31. 0017: THE DIRECTOR
  32. 0018: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  33. 0019: CONTROL
  34. 0020: THE DIRECTOR
  35. 0021: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  36. 0022: GHOST BIRD
  37. 0023: THE DIRECTOR
  38. 0024: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  39. 0025: CONTROL
  40. 0026: THE DIRECTOR
  41. 0027: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  42. 0028: GHOST BIRD
  43. 000X: THE DIRECTOR
  44. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  45. About the Author
  46. PRAISE FOR THE SOUTHERN REACH TRILOGY
  47. ALSO BY JEFF VANDERMEER
  48. Credits
  49. Copyright
  50. About the Publisher

They descended into the tower.

0020: THE DIRECTOR

Whitby’s worthless report on the blossom is on your desk by the time you go off to another pre-expedition interview of the biologist, the possible candidates for the twelfth whittled down to ten, and you and Grace, you and Lowry, pushing for your favorites, with members of the science department shadowboxing in the background as they whisper their own choices at you. Severance seems terminally uninterested in the question.

It’s not a good time to interview anyone but you don’t have a choice. The plant is blossoming again in your mind as you conduct the interview in a cramped little office in the biologist’s town—a place you’ve borrowed and can pretend is your own, with all of the appropriate psychological and psychiatric texts on the bookshelves. The diplomas and family pictures of the room’s true occupant have been removed. In a concession to Lowry, for his studies, you’ve allowed his people to swap out chairs, light fixtures, and other elements of the room, as if in redecorating and changing the color scheme from placid blues and greens to red, orange, and gray or silver there’s some answer to a larger question.

Lowry claims his arrangements and recombinations can have a “subliminal or instinctual” effect on the candidates.

“To make them feel secure and at ease?” you asked, a rare moment of poking the beast with a stick, but he ignored you, and in your head he was saying, “To make them do what we want.”

There’s the smell of water damage still, from a burst pipe in the basement. There’s a water stain in the corner, hidden by a little table, as if you need to cover up some crime. The only giveaway that it’s not your office: you’re cramped, stuffed into your chair.

The plant is blossoming in your mind, and each time it does there’s less time to work with, less you can do. Is the plant a challenge or an invitation or a worthless distraction? A message? And if so, what did it mean, assuming Whitby didn’t imagine it? The light at the bottom of a topographical anomaly, from a door into Area X, on the tarot card used by the Séance & Science Brigade. The blossoming light of an MRI body scan, the one you endured last week.

In the middle of all that blossoming in your brain, the kind of thing that would elicit a joke from Grace if only you could tell her, there, bestriding the world: the biologist, a talisman arriving just as everything is closing in again and your time has become more limited.

“State your name for the record.”

“I did that last time.”

“Nevertheless.”

The biologist looks at you like you’re an opponent, not the person who can send her where she so obviously wants to go. You note again not just the musculature of this woman but the fact that she’s willing to complicate even the simple business of stating her name. That she has a kind of self-possession that comes not just from knowing who she is but from knowing that, if it comes down to it, she needs no one. Some professionals might diagnose that as a disorder, but in the biologist it comes across as an absolute and unbending clarity.