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  1. ACCEPTANCE
  2. JEFF VANDERMEER
  3. Dedication
  4. Table of Contents
  5. 000X: THE DIRECTOR, TWELFTH EXPEDITION
  6. PART I RANGE LIGHT
  7. 0001: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  8. 0002: GHOST BIRD
  9. 0003: THE DIRECTOR
  10. 0004: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  11. 0005: CONTROL
  12. 0006: THE DIRECTOR
  13. 0007: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  14. 0008: GHOST BIRD
  15. 0009: THE DIRECTOR
  16. 0010: CONTROL
  17. PART II FIXED LIGHT
  18. 01: THE BRIGHTNESS
  19. 02: THE MOANING CREATURE
  20. 03: THE ISLAND
  21. 04: THE OWL
  22. 05: THE SEEKER & SURVEILLANCE BANDITS
  23. 06: THE PASSAGE OF TIME, AND PAIN
  24. PART III OCCULTING LIGHT
  25. 0011: GHOST BIRD
  26. 0012: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  27. 0013: CONTROL
  28. 0014: THE DIRECTOR
  29. 0015: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  30. 0016: GHOST BIRD
  31. 0017: THE DIRECTOR
  32. 0018: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  33. 0019: CONTROL
  34. 0020: THE DIRECTOR
  35. 0021: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  36. 0022: GHOST BIRD
  37. 0023: THE DIRECTOR
  38. 0024: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  39. 0025: CONTROL
  40. 0026: THE DIRECTOR
  41. 0027: THE LIGHTHOUSE KEEPER
  42. 0028: GHOST BIRD
  43. 000X: THE DIRECTOR
  44. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  45. About the Author
  46. PRAISE FOR THE SOUTHERN REACH TRILOGY
  47. ALSO BY JEFF VANDERMEER
  48. Credits
  49. Copyright
  50. About the Publisher

Grace’s tone did not admit to doubt, or that she cared whether they believed her or not, an essential indifference to questions, as if Area X had worn her down. A pragmatism that meant she knew the conclusions she had reached would please no one.

But Ghost Bird knew what she had seen in the corridor leading into Area X, the detritus and trash she had seen there, the bodies, and wondered if it might be real and not summoned from her mind. Wondered what might have come through the twenty-foot door that Control had described to her, the door lost to them. What might still come through such a door? And her thought: Nothing, because if so, it would have happened long ago.

The marsh lakes had become such a deep, perfect blue in that uncertain light that the reflections of the surrounding scrub forest on that surface seemed as real as their root-bound doppelgängers. Their mud-encrusted boots churned up amid the rich sediment and plant roots a smell almost like crisp hay.

Control leaned against Ghost Bird more than once to keep his balance, almost pulling her down in the process. Ahead of them now came the smell of burning, and from above something the others could not see stitched its way through the overcast sky, and Ghost Bird was not surprised.

0017: THE DIRECTOR

One spring day at the Southern Reach, you’re taking a break, pacing across the courtyard tiles as you worry at a problem in your head, and you see something strange out by the swamp lake. At the edge of the black water, a figure squats, hunched over, hands you cannot see busy at some mysterious task. Your first impulse is to call security, but then you recognize the slight frame, the tuft of dark hair: It’s Whitby, in his brown blazer, his navy slacks, his dress shoes.

Whitby, playing in the mud. Washing something? Strangling something? The level of concentration he displays, even at this distance, is of working on something that requires a jeweler’s precision.

Instinct tells you to be silent, to walk slow, to take care with fallen branches and dead leaves. Whitby has been startled enough in the past, by the past, and you want your presence known by degrees. Halfway there, though, he turns long enough to acknowledge you and go back to what he’s doing, and you walk faster after that.

The trees are as sullen as ever, looking like hunched-over priests with long beards of moss, or as Grace says, less respectfully, “Like a line of used-up old drug addicts.” The water carries only the small, patient ripples made by Whitby, and your reflection as you come close and lean over his shoulder is distorted by widening rings and wavery gray light.

Whitby is washing a small brown mouse.

He holds the mouse, careful but firm, between the thumb and index finger of his left hand, the mouse’s head and front legs circled by this fleshy restraint, the pale belly, back legs, and tail splayed out across his palm. The mouse seems hypnotized or for some other reason preternaturally calm while Whitby with his cupped right hand ladles water onto the mouse, then extends his little finger and rubs the water into the fur of the underbelly, the sides, then the furry cheeks, followed by anointment of the top of the head.