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Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 2008
  4. Chapter 1
  5. 2013
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. 2023
  60. Chapter 55
  61. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  62. CREDITS
  63. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  64. What’s next onyour reading list?

“Capitalism institutionalizes inequality,” Mel said. “We need nationalized health care, better labor practices—fuck, the restaurant industry is insane.”

“Yeah, I agree with you,” I said, “but that’s not what this movie’s about. They’re afraid of the Soviet Union and the People’s Republic of China.”

“You think their fears were justified?” Mel asked, surprised.

“Hang on,” Lisa said, pausing the movie. “It’s more complicated than what either of you are saying. They’re not afraid of the Soviet Union and China—or maybe they are, but that’s not what the fear of Communism in this film is about. It was the Cold War, right? Anticommunism was also about expanding American democracy.” She put finger quotes around democracy. “In other words, American imperial power. And if the Commies are bad, then we’re good.”

“Well, that’s a lie,” Mel said.

“It is propaganda, in a way,” Lisa said. “But Aria has a point, too. People in China and the Soviet Union totally suffered under their Communist governments, but we didn’t really know what was going on. It’s not like the internet existed back then. So we could make up shit about them—the idea that they’re all faceless masses obeying their leaders, like these emotionless pod people.” She gestured to the movie, where a crowd of pod people were chasing the lead characters down a road.

“So, it’s bad propaganda,” Steph said.

“It’s uninformed propaganda,” I said.

“Or maybe it’s art,” Lisa said, and started the movie again.

Afterward, as I was getting ready to leave, I asked Lisa, “How did you know all that stuff about Communism?”

“I took a film class about classic science-fiction movies and the Red Scare,” she said.

“Oh yeah, Steph said you were almost a film major. How come you decided not to be?”

“I didn’t really decide not to be,” Lisa said, sounding disgruntled. “I just didn’t finish college. Not worth the money.”

—

In mid-July, I got my housing assignment from MIT. In a little over a month I’d be leaving, and Steph would stay here. Maybe we’d keep in touch after I left, and she’d come visit me. I imagined us in Cambridge in the winter, walking down Mass Ave together in the snow, our breath blooming cloudlike from our mouths. She’d be cold because she was from California; I’d lend her a scarf and gloves. When we came inside, I’d brush the snow from her shoulders.