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Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 2008
  4. Chapter 1
  5. 2013
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. 2023
  60. Chapter 55
  61. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  62. CREDITS
  63. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  64. What’s next onyour reading list?

On the title page was an inscription: To Steph—Don’t give up on your dreams. I couldn’t read the signature, but it looked like a J followed by a squiggle.

I reached for my phone and texted her: Who gave you the book of Rich poems? Just curious.

As soon as I sent it—part of me pleased that I’d come up with a legitimate reason to text her—I felt stupid and wished I hadn’t.

She didn’t respond immediately. I opened the book again and began to read. “Twenty-One Love Poems” weren’t twenty-one separate poems, but a connected narrative, a story about two women who meet in New York City and fall in love. Their relationship seemed to end ambiguously; I wasn’t entirely sure what happened. One poem was unnumbered and titled “The Floating Poem,” and this was the only one that fit my idea of what a love poem was supposed to be: centered on physical desire. I ran the words around in my mouth as if I were tasting something new. They were lush and round, like berries. If I were to paint them, they would be ripe orange and pomegranate red.

My phone dinged, making my heart race.

Steph wrote: Ms. Silva, my high school English teacher. She gave it to me when I graduated.

I stared at her message for some time before I responded. I’m reading the 21 love poems. Is your song inspired by number 15? The lyrics sound like some of those lines.

Several minutes passed before she replied: Not exactly, but sort of. It’s hard to explain by text. I get off work in an hour. Want to meet up?

A burst of excitement went through me. I forced myself to wait for a minute. While I was counting off seconds, I remembered Joan had gone out for the afternoon, taking her car, and I had promised to walk Analemma. A flash of disappointment was followed by a sudden new idea.

Do you want to come here? Joan’s out and I told her I’d take Analemma on a hike. You could come with us.

I waited, barely breathing, for what felt like the longest thirty seconds of my life. Her response was brief: OK.

—

By the time Steph arrived, I’d put on sneakers and changed my clothes twice. When Analemma started barking, I grabbed her leash and my sunglasses, and we went out to meet Steph.

She was coming up the path and bent down to pet Analemma, who bounded up to her. “You look ready to go,” she said, and Analemma barked. Steph laughed. “Wow, all right,” she said, and then she looked up at me from beneath the brim of her baseball cap, smiling. “Hi.”

“Hi,” I replied. Analemma dashed down to the bottom of the path to wait by the closed gate, her tail whipping back and forth excitedly.