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Chapters (64)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 2008
  4. Chapter 1
  5. 2013
  6. Chapter 2
  7. Chapter 3
  8. Chapter 4
  9. Chapter 5
  10. Chapter 6
  11. Chapter 7
  12. Chapter 8
  13. Chapter 9
  14. Chapter 10
  15. Chapter 11
  16. Chapter 12
  17. Chapter 13
  18. Chapter 14
  19. Chapter 15
  20. Chapter 16
  21. Chapter 17
  22. Chapter 18
  23. Chapter 19
  24. Chapter 20
  25. Chapter 21
  26. Chapter 22
  27. Chapter 23
  28. Chapter 24
  29. Chapter 25
  30. Chapter 26
  31. Chapter 27
  32. Chapter 28
  33. Chapter 29
  34. Chapter 30
  35. Chapter 31
  36. Chapter 32
  37. Chapter 33
  38. Chapter 34
  39. Chapter 35
  40. Chapter 36
  41. Chapter 37
  42. Chapter 38
  43. Chapter 39
  44. Chapter 40
  45. Chapter 41
  46. Chapter 42
  47. Chapter 43
  48. Chapter 44
  49. Chapter 45
  50. Chapter 46
  51. Chapter 47
  52. Chapter 48
  53. Chapter 49
  54. Chapter 50
  55. Chapter 51
  56. Chapter 52
  57. Chapter 53
  58. Chapter 54
  59. 2023
  60. Chapter 55
  61. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  62. CREDITS
  63. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  64. What’s next onyour reading list?

I opened Chrome and googled Bernice Bing. There were links to the documentary, but there were also links to the Queer Cultural Center, which had hosted a retrospective of her work in 1999, the year after she died. Her bio was sparse, but dramatic. She had been born in San Francisco in 1936 but lost both her parents as a child, and was raised by foster families. She’d gone to art school here and started exhibiting paintings in the 1950s at the height of the Beat era. She had been out as a lesbian and accepted by the art community, but the bio didn’t mention her having a surviving partner.

The Queer Cultural Center website included small photos of her paintings; the images were so tiny on my phone I pulled out my laptop so I could enlarge them. Bernice Bing used giant sweeps of color in some; in others she painted with strokes that looked like Chinese calligraphy. I lingered on one painting in particular. The top third looked like water with a mountain emerging from it; the bottom two-thirds was dark, with a swirling mass of blue and white on the right. I wanted to know what the swirling mass of color meant to Bernice. I studied her photo in the documentary poster, but she eluded me.

I took my computer with me into the kitchen, where Joan was at the table drinking coffee and reading the Sunday Chronicle. I set my laptop down beside the discarded Arts section.

“Good morning,” she said. “You slept in. How was yesterday?”

“It was interesting,” I said, taking out milk and cereal.

“Is that the word you use when you don’t really enjoy something?”

I could hear the smile in Joan’s voice. “No, I had fun. I just didn’t know anyone very well, so the whole day was meeting new people.” I poured myself a cup of coffee and brought my breakfast to the table, where I sat down. “Have you heard of Bernice Bing?”

She considered the name for a moment. “I don’t know. Who is she?”

I turned my laptop around to face her, showing her the bio. “She was an artist here in San Francisco. She’s dead now.”

Joan skimmed the bio. “She had a show at SomArts, and I taught there around the same time. I might have met her, but I’m not sure.” She began to click through the pictures. “Her work feels familiar to me somehow.”

“I thought some of your early paintings looked like these,” I said.

Her eyebrows rose a little but she nodded. “Abstract Expressionism. It was hard to escape in the fifties and sixties. You know, Jackson Pollock and Mark Rothko. Most of the famous Ab-Ex artists were men, but that’s because back then it was still acceptable to say that women couldn’t be painters.”

“But you were painting,” I said. “And Bernice Bing.”